evan essence

Evan essence is
1. essence of evan (?!) - take away the outer trappings and facade, what i am about.
2. evanescence
ev·a·nesce intr.v. ev·a·nesced, ev·a·nesc·ing, ev·a·nesc·es
To dissipate or disappear like vapor
"Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while & then vanishes away. " - James 4:14
"Man is like a mere breath;His days are like a passing shadow. " - Psalm 144:4

Thursday, November 05, 2009

JUST came back from watching "THIS IS IT". man... i was enjoying it so much. Michael Jackson is really something. God really made him so so creative. at times he talks about the music arrangement as if he is cooking something - "let it simmer...", "take all the nourishment.." haha.
he is amazing. and it's nice to see him move into more jazz... i like the way he did "the way you make me feel." n i LOVE the vids and special effects for the opening, "they dont really care about us", "earth song", "thriller". but "Smooth criminal" takes the cake!
if you are gonna watch the movie, stay right till the end cos they have a short clip at the end. 
this is one movie i would want to get its dvd. 
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thank you all of you for sending your birthday greetings! THANK YOU!!!
thank to those who 
made me something: pps (teenster!!!!!!), card...
gave me something: thru amazon (YT thanks!!!!), thru my bathroom door... haha (my dear suite-mates), heather for the apple pie.....
sang me happy birthday umpteen times...
will give me prophetic blessing and words of knowledge tonight (cya at 8 in the commons)

i have been looking forward to this birthday for a long time... cos it's the BIG 3-0. and i think it is very significant. a whole new chapter. a whole new ERA.... i love my twenties.. n each year was better than the next... so i really look forward to my thirties. something tells me it will be a blast. i cant wait to live out my days with the Lord. it's amazing to spend my life with Him (well, of course He gave me this life). 

what i did on 3rd november.... well, my birthday thingy kinda started when it's 3rd nov in spore.... the well wishes came pouring in. n it was only afternoon on 2nd over here. so i kinda started feeling it was my birthday since the 2nd. and i m still celebrating today. open some presents then went to the Prayer house to soak after midnight... went to Rivers restaurant for lunch cos it overlooks the river to the mountains... if dinner then cant see anything... sun sets at 5 now. spent the whole afternoon out on the patio eating and taking pictures, reading the bible, journalling. God gave me amazing weather - sunny ard 20 degrees. so it's not hot and not cold so i could comfortably wear a skirt and a thin nylon blouse like i do in spore. then despite a huge row i had, i ended 3rd nov back in the prayer house soaking. was so good i could go on all night but decided to come back to honour the dorm curfew. 

i hope no one sms-ed me on my spore number cos it's been suspended since i m over here. so FB or email me. u could call...but then.. watch the time hor... hee hee....

God bless you all. thank you for being sharing your life with me. it's a privilege to share mine with you. 

Sunday, November 01, 2009

today Daylight savings end. dont ask me what it means. all i know is that the clocks get turn back 1 hour. i forgot about that so i was puzzled when i saw the 1st service guys walking out to their car a 9.15am. i was like.... "arent they late?" no they're not. i'm early!

so... we are now 16 hours behind singapore time. hmmm... it means i get to sleep in later! haha. 


Thursday, October 29, 2009



friend bought this album. just got to hear it. i m blown away by this song. there is more than meets the eye in this.... hear it with spiritual hears... He who has a ear, let him hear...

you'll c MJ in heaven when you get there. 
will try catch his movie in the coming few days...

anyway i m stoked learning that sch has a break on 3rd and 4th nov!! so i have a long weekend break till thursday! man... God is so good to me...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

time flies so fast! wish it'll slow down for me to take in all that i m learning here!

thank God for the grace poured into my life by people:
Holly last thurs, tonight, Claire. and of course the many many people in my everyday interactions. 

the Body of Christ will indeed rise up and be the victorious Bride that together with the Spirit say to Jesus, "come!" (see rev 22) 

brrr... it's 51 degrees F now. so it's about 9.5 degrees C. c-cold...

Friday, October 23, 2009

bought my 1st car today 22nd october (it's 23rd in spore). 97 toyota corolla for USD1900. thank God for all the help to get this. 
1.felt God held the car for us. 
2. dormmate who knew alot about cars came by as we viewed the car and he helped us check engine, oil etc.  and made sure it is good. 
3. seller is Christian and very forthcoming. had all the maintenance records etc in good order.
4. the procedures went smoothly

the seller invited us to their relatives' place for thanksgiving. i had initially thought he was "just saying". but he repeated it in front of his wife and she heartedly agreed and asked if he (seller) has our number. 

but driving on the other side of the road has been stressful to me. it's v counter-intuitive. i would still check the wrong side 1st or drive on the wrong side (thankfully it is a residential place so no other cars were there). or turn on the wipers when i m trying to signal! LOL

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

i have been learning SO SO much over here that my mind is unable to keep up. but i believe that as my spirit soaks it up, and internalize the stuff, my mind will catch up in time to come.

God has been blessing me so much with people coming along to offer us rides, helping us to get our errands done when we are so immobile. bus service is v scarce and without a car it is v v inconvenient. so right now, i m basking in His gracious providence of friendship and hospitality of people. thank You Lord. 

May i encourage you to  take time to pause and take stock of His grace that is poured into your day today or the past week and give thanks? God is good. to me and to you. really good. 

Sunday, September 27, 2009

fall's here but one can hardly agree when it's 45 degrees celsius here!
but today was an Eph3:20 day for me. 
Erin invited us to come with her and some friends: Gordon, Eliana, Olga, n 2 boys - Benny n Benton. Erin kindly came and pick us up at the dorm. 
went hiking around Brandy Creek and up to the waterfalls. had a little trouble climbing there but soon i got more used to it. it was cool up in the mountains. the view and the forest got me really glad. took alot of pictures. one of those were of hundreds of ladybugs. whole logs were full of them. Oliver told us that ladybugs are called "defender of the harvest." and farmers love them cos they eat aphids and other pests that destroy their crops. 
at the waterfall i had a wonderful time worshipping God. i felt God's presence sitting there on the rock. 
after getting back into our cars, the boys went down to the another waterfall to swim. we didnt go cos the climb down was taxing. i thought we wouldnt have another chance to swim. Olga suggested we go to the lake to eat our very late lunches after 3pm). 
after understanding where we were heading to Whiskeytown lake i was elated. 

last sat my dorm friends went to whiskeytown lake n i chose to stay back to do my book reports and spend time reflecting. i told God i wanted to go to the lake and around the mountains but not that sat.

God answered the very next sat! and over and beyond! we had great company. and food. and i escaped the heat. 


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

today's ben's birthday. we had a birthday celebration for him.  40 odd of us were at the BBQ area (yes... juz outside my room....) after singing "Happy Birthday", we gathered around him and started prophesying and praying for him. went on and so long and then after, rick asked if he could have the honour to wash his feet. wow. i was really blown away by these mostly 18 year olds and few older ones. they are incredible! and the gifts they operate in... wow such move of God... my heart was so filled up just seeing the love displayed and the honour given to this dear brother. 

kris Vallotton's messages were powerful. everyday here is like... so overwhelming. i'm receiving so much in the spirit... my mind cannot make sense of what's happening inside yet. but i know God's working... 

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

everything's good here. i really feel overwhelming blessed.

d food's here's so good too! i was concerned that i wud miss rice since i m such a rice person. but... the dining center has been giving me rice at least 4 days out of the 8 that i've been here! n today... they actually had our kind of rice! u noe wat i mean? the past few days were mexican grains. today's tasted like Thai Fragrant rice! i was elated! God's so good to me! n on top of that, there's this Filipino who has brought a packet of rice n rice cooker! n we r sharing. well, i'm cooking. so we'll have dat rice whenever i finally get down to cook. =)

1 down thing is that my room's right in front of the BBQ compound. besides the lounge, people gather there to worship and have our Holy Ghost parties where they get drunk on..... well the Holy Ghost! so the noise of drums and guit, loud singing, and people praying n laughing hysterically is to be expected. what i didnt expect was the smoke.... they lit a fire for the past 3 nights. i had to close my window n door, stuff wet towel in the gaps where smoke can come in. n joanne claimed our things smelled.  oh well.

things have settled down well. work is getting due and so i've been hitting my book hard =) it's weird cos i have to take sometime to shake off my university studying mindset. it's very different here.  there's no pressure but the KS thing just auto on n i have to shut it down. i took time to shake off the thesis writing mode n tell myself, "hey, i'm doing my assignments not to score here. it's for me to learn. i can do it in whatever format, and ways i like."

main thing dat i have been doing is juz thanking God. 2 sit at the feet of spiritual giants and learn from them, staying with young people who are so on fire.... i'm really overwhelming blessed. it's heaven here on earth!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

...obedience to the Spirit is everything. few have ever been so willing to trust in the Lord to this degree, and few have ever seen true revival because of it. if the Lord does not show up at our meetings we always have a pretty good program anyway. if the Lord completely departed from many churches the would never realise it. but those who have tasted of His presence can never again be satisfied merely with program - they have the Lord. even though the hype, manipulation and programs have wearied the church to the degree that the hunger for the Lord Himself that is beginning to rise in her. the church at the end of this age will return to her first love. she will be so compelled to draw near to Him, that he will draw near to her - on a scale that will signify that even this great Welsh Revival was but a foretaste of the harvest that is the end of the age. - Rick Joyner, A World Aflame