my calling

1:4 Có lời Đức Giê-hô-va phán cùng tôi như vầy: Trước khi tạo nên ngươi trong lòng mẹ, ta đã biết ngươi rồi; 1:5 trước khi ngươi sanh ra, ta đã biệt riêng ngươi, lập ngươi làm kẻ tiên tri cho các nước. 1:6 Tôi thưa rằng: Ôi! hỡi Chúa Giê-hô-va, nầy tôi chẳng biết nói chi, vì tôi là con trẻ. 1:7 Nhưng Đức Giê-hô-va lại phán: Chớ nói: Tôi là con trẻ; vì ngươi sẽ đi khắp nơi nào ta sai ngươi đi, và sẽ nói mọi điều ta truyền cho nói. 1:8 Đừng sợ vì cớ chúng nó; vì ta ở với ngươi đặng giải cứu ngươi, Đức Giê-hô-va phán vậy. 1:9 Đoạn, Đức Giê-hô-va giang tay rờ miệng tôi. Đức Giê-hô-va lại phán cùng tôi rằng: Nầy, ta đã đặt những lời ta trong miệng ngươi. 1:10 Hãy xem, ngày nay ta đã lập ngươi trên các dân các nước, đặng ngươi hoặc nhổ, hoặc phá, hoặc diệt, hoặc đổ, hoặc dựng, hoặc trồng.

my Job & job descripton

Matthew 28:19, 20
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Colossians 1:25-29
I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness— the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the saints. To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory. We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me.

Vaclav Havel

“And as soon as man began considering himself the source of the highest meaning in the world and the measure of everything, the world began to lose its human dimension” - Vaclav Havel

what then should he consider as the source of the highest meaning and measure of everything?

stressometer reading 7.75 out of 10...

camp on fri... so many things unsettled. my message not out too, need 2 work min vision casting wif jo... log, attendance list all over d place...where to find nite vehicle... seniors too busy/tired to come... outdoor movie.. wat?? *pulls hair*
n i m having an ambivalent love-hate relationship wif comp, n msn! so many pp n things 2 b attended to... dun get me wrong.. i love p peep.. juz not really MSN n comp.. well not today.. i rem i love comp n msn d day b4...kena reminded of upcoming events dat r baring on us like an oncoming train fast n hard
DG wif DO gals on mon was gr8. being so much freer means they org DG, prep 4 BS, n talk alot lor! hee... so DG very long. love them so much! dey really make me so happy...
FG meetings in the morn...going 4 EFG. m glad AA came 2 invite me... yeah... Praise God 4 one movement!! cheers! but still... it'll take my whole morn away fr my original schedule lah...
caught abit of SI juz now. man... if Jon leong sing jazz to me.. i ll swoon! he's so good!
read mail... kena a BIG arrow... m put on yet another "task force". it was hilarious lah - opening the mail... ominous foreboding...almost dared not scroll down to read the list of names in the task force... so... yeah.. my name's on the list. sigh. so... i m on HR, CI n LTTF+, E, D FGs... idunwanidunwanidunwan... sob~. i noe each min got rep in all FGs n stuff... but i'm only 1 person lah...
*summons power fr on high*
whoa.. alternating btw cheers n sobs... a bit sot! i m really stressed!
throws burdens unto God... closes eyes... crosses 8 fingers... breathes deeply in.... breathes deeply out...

was looking for my 'feel good song' to put up.. but alas stumbled upon this song... which does cover what was my HUGE distraction today on top of all my stresses... so.. here the entry takes on a totally different tone fr wat i had intended...

<爱很简单> u were on my mind today... too much.i need/miss u sooooooo bad la. so distracting. focus. sigh.

CAst yOur burDens uNto HiM 4 hE cAreZ 4 u - 1 peter 5:7

pissifying!

learnt dat word fr rach s. was supposed 2 b @ a conf now. dey din get my reg! some cock-up. i signed up 4 early bird reg wif cheque some more. should ve done it myself rather than passing it 2 my colleague. TOTALLY PISSED. i refuse 2 pay so much extra 4 registering-at-d-door lah. power walked d distance of 2 mrt stations n 2 bus stops n sprinted 100m 4 bus 2 let off steam... cont in office - cleared rubbish n vacuumed. (i dun believe dis mess!) now m sweaty n stinky lah... so not d day 4 it... wearing a white, prissy long sleeve which is now crumpled n not so clean! tokked 2 colleagues... felt beta after all dat n blogging this helps! phew!

so need dis conf lah... needed 2 clock in 4 my CPE (continuous professional education) to renew my RSW reg. dis is d cheapest n most comprehensive liao. i dunno how 2 afford d time n $$ 4 others lah! sucky. Lord, i leave this CPE thingy in Your hands.

new vocabulary i learnt over the weekend - pissifying, chak, watever, man ... (wif action!) LOL

i think this is good afterall, give me time to do some things dat need 2 b settled. God is sovereign. yeah! come, lemme share wf u this Tamil Christian song:

Yesu, Yesu, Yesu nalluvar x3
Yesu nalluvar unaku
Yesu nalluvar yennaku
Yesu nalluvar nameku amen!

rough translated as
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus is so good
Jesus is gd to you, Jesus is gd to me, Jesus is gd to us... amen!

man.. i can go on...! hmm... spanish christian song?? aiyah... cukup(enuf- in malay) another time... back 2 work! hee. praise the Lord!

crusaders' gathering

fetched glo, rushed to old crusaders' gathering on sat nite! so cool! 39 of us turned up! we've like grad at least 3 years! (for me 5!) so long din c so many of then! gr8 catching up. feels so good old dayz... we all havent changed much except exchanged our tees n jeans wif more sopisticated (aka older-looking) clothes! i'm so glad i die die made it! after dat died during svc on sun morn la! thanks MA 4 org it! told u b4, say again... LOVE YA GAL! somehow... dunno y... hah

glo stayed-over enroute to java's tsunami... sun am sent her 2 airport b4 going 2 church. then go church, youth, asemoc meet, faith's pl, then GX n YT... come home 2 cold dinner... i think my auto-pilot mode has expanded its range of functions!

juz took a look at my past entries... m so so "re-inspired"! i wrote more sensible stuff in d past apparently!

LTTF, blast-off

came back fr LTTF... dvery 1st day we spent praying, worshipping, n 4 me... getting a sense of history. hah.. never thot of it till so many of them shared that this is history-in-the-making, making such big changes 2 the org etc... one of them joked that 10 years down the road, if the org fails, we can point 2 this very retreat!
wat a watershed event. this is really a turn in the fork-road.

was a gr8 time of planning. started off wif praying n worship. i'm thankful for the godly leaders we have. was a great time of sparring.. thank God for the great discussions and the safe environment for honest opinions and brutal questions and comments, the unity: agreeing to disagree and not kill each over for it! it's amazing - the friendliness(no ammo, no gunpowder, no fire) and openness, the willingness to hear and understand. a recognition dat we r in this tog, dat every1 is doing his level best. hah... n of course eating tog... nice... hee.

thank God for a right spirit within me. it's worth wat i gave up for.
well, as usual, more work after a planning retreat!

wat i've learnt:
1. good leaders give good answers.

Great leaders ask good questions.
2. i need to sharpen my thinking... n... learn 2 phrase things better.

best news of the year: med min is core min; priority! they will beef up the min. i wouldve cheered or give my usual happy dumb look... but all i could manage was wide-eyed, stunned silence! too stunned and thankful to even cry! it's been so long!!! yay! hopefully asap. hah... now i love beef! hee.
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Blast-off FOC
"when God asks you to do something, don't say 'no'. cos when you do, your heart would have been hardened by that little bit towards God. don't harden your heart towards God."

- Josh H. SC 4 2 consec yrs in sci.

power of the spoke word

I doubt many people would argue about d power of d spoken word.

We don't need a master's in psychology to know that our hearts leap at the sound of affirming words. It's just how God wired us. Any co-worker with a new hairdo will agree. Any toddler who is potty training or husband who just closed the “big deal” will nod emphatically as well. We possess a tremendous ability to very simply "make someone's day" with heartfelt praise or to even alter the course of a life with the power of our words.

Oprah, Bill Gates, and Tiger Woods have all, at one point, attributed their early success to the empowering encouragement of someone else. Perhaps it was just a small phrase or statement, but one that was instrumental in building up or perhaps even just holding up hope and belief for a brief second. That can be all the time it takes to get someone to look at the mirror differently.

Conversely, it doesn't take that same graduate degree to know that the power of words can be unleashed as perhaps the most primitive of weapons. Most of us would agree that whoever penned that little ditty about "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me" was obviously never a fifth grader. Words can not only hurt, but they can leave shrapnel in the soul long after the explosion hits and the smoke clears. Next time you need a reminder about the power of the negative word, dust off the book of James. It's been said that the tongue is the strongest muscle in the body. I think the spirit would agree.

So... having taken a moment to consider the power and impact of both our life-giving, affirming words as well as the life-robbing, destructive power of the tongue... here's one more thought to chew on, (pardon the pun). What about the power of words never spoken? For me, I can look back on my life and count too many times when I'd wished I'd listened to my gut (and the Holy Spirit) and just had the courage to open my mouth and let my heart spill out, regardless of the awkward moment. You've heard the rather overused challenge to live each day as it if were your last... but there is real wisdom there. Why wait to say "I love you?" Why wait one more day to forgive? Or to ask for forgiveness? There is a reason that Paul, in Ephesians 4, encourages us not to let the sun go down on our anger. Perhaps because he knew, as a hunted and persecuted man, that a sunrise the next morning was not something to b e assumed. He understood, better than anyone, the importance of keeping his accounts short.

Say it now. Go there. The tongue might be powerful, but so are clenched teeth and a firmly set jaw. And silence can speak volumes we never meant to say. Matthew 12:34 reminds us that what is in our hearts, will come spilling out of our mouths. If your heart is full today, or even broken, consider springing a leak and letting someone know. The relief and healing that may follow will make you a believer in the power of words, all over again.

Nichole NordemanDove Award-Winning Singer/Songwriter

bear bear....

longest n most incredible day of this year

i celebrate my 5 years on staff on 15 july... n started off my 6th year at 10am dat sat morn preparing for afternoon sem, then after the sem, go for vn mt meet. the day did not end late dat night... it went on... thru d nite wif msn conversation wif jo. while i prep my OA presentation. and lasted until now actually!

went to church in d morning. stayed 4 opening song b4 goin over 2 present OA 2 d kids. felt God's presence so strong, juz one song i felt all filled up. as i walked out of the hall towards the counselling centre, i burst out saying, "i love church!" man it's been so long! and, at that very moment, i felt God telling me how much He loves this church too; how much He loves us. it was awesome!

presenting 2 d kids was a little daunting to me. surprised cos i know them and i used to teach them lah...! but duno y! anyway they responded quite well to me which was a pleasant n welcome relief!

then went back 2 hall. stepping in, i felt God's presence so so strong. after sermon's ministry time, i couldn't stop crying. i felt my spirit within me crying out to God to come and move in this church. din go up for min but juz sat there crying non-stop. till it was time for me to go up to present OA. which proved tough cos i was still so touched and had to tell the congre wat God has placed in my heart - dat He wants us to press on in to know Him; He wants to do marvellous things in our midst.

OA presentation was ok i guess. the youths said i was funny. n were surprised i took sucha short time. the congre was responsive. Lord, move them into action... onto their knees!

then went 4 youth. was a good time of sharing n hearing fr them wat they wan 2 c in the min.candid sharing. praise God!

was tempted 2 eat. was so so famished after youth. felt so so weak. thank God for holding me up.

went 2 GC about 430pm. (actually went down to get the chip to hand in. was supposed to run the SHAPE's 10k run today but din cos launching OA... well... if wat happened in church today, i wouldnt have missed church for the world!!!) well, turned out God has more in store 4 me than juz 2 get the chip. went up to rofftop to pray... was the MOST EXHILARATING, MOST DESPERATE time! ended wen i felt a release. came down, got a call fr deb abt getting accepted in2 den! she got it on wed but only called after my prayertime! felt God wanted me 2 b dis hungry, dis desperate, dis indignant, b4 showing me His answers. as i hear fr deb d how n why... i felt dat He was saying 2 me this is the 1st of the many u ve asked 4!

went to MSq 2 return chip, got my bear finally! n then SS sms asked me out for tea. my 1st reaction was "No!" cos i needed to sleep! but then suddenly felt a "spirit-nudge"... min opp! so agreed. went home gobbled up my dinner n rushed out to meet her. my mom so sim tia cos she knew i din sleep n still going out. had a gr8 time discussing n hearing her view on God, n why she dislikes Christianity! gave her bible as pres. glad she took it. parted at 10 plus.

met yunhong on bus, talked abt religion (according to him, he is a strong free-thinker!), him ROM-ing this wed, n his job. was good!

i dunno but i feel so "on" abt sharing! is it d praying or OA? it's both n more! i'm glad for this F- > hunger, > on

sent more minimitator pub emails out dats y i'm online now... blogged cos dis is today's good not to!

sylvia got MRSA. kinda serious. haiz! wif her multiple cancers n renal failure... she told me only after me being so near NUH today n wont be down there d next few dayz! Lord, b wif her... i dunno how...

2 pp tell me they love me today... love it! hee

m feeling so energetic now.. but cannot, must go sleep

bascially if this is how i start my 6th year... dis year's gona b exciting!

shucks! doing my OA ppt presentation 4 svc later 2day. m looking high n low 4 d ppts i did as a trainee! where ve they all gone to?

even tho i m not a very organised person, i pride myself for 1. not losing things, 2. for having my notes n materials nicely filed (or soft-copy backed-up somewhere).

yet i realised i m not so good wif lending pp things... i've lost alot of books n notes n training materials juz lending out n forgetting who's it wif! eg. few of my full colour transparencies! man... i hope the CD i burnt my training ppts on is in my office n not lent out or lost! argh!

if u have any of my stuff... n it's like long overdue... pls...

finally putting this up - these were wat i was taking these 2 weeks!
8 lil' tablets! cute hor? so nice n colourful... can pass off as sweets! tot i m done wif my meds... today my sinus got worse! all stuck there... n asthma...! so now new puff, new nasal spray... so X!

12th - beyond the stress n demands of min... it was a dream shattered (d), a hope deferred(V)
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nobody said it's gonna b easy... i trust, i wait, i perservere
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talked to sis till 4am this morn (13th)! wow!
what a blessing a traumatic day can bring huh?
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encouraged by guys' (SK, AL) desire 2 come, b accountable n grow.
filled wif child-like glee at completing the OA booklet.
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had an ominous "revisitation" of the song
"sometimes when we touched... the honesty's too much... n i have to close my eyes n hide... i wanna hold u till i die... till we both break down n cry... i wanna hold u till the fear in me subside..."
as i was queuing at the ATM tonight.
was puzzling over the sudden recollection...
then... a totally unexpected, rare msn encounter. hmmm...

we have a profound need for closures... for a good "Goodbye"...
yet, how do you say "goodbye" when it is so long overdue?

wat a stressful day!!

dad, LTTF, VN, OP An. wah i got heart palpitations, chest constriction man. tough decisions. prayed, asked ard, decide already, then sit down to cry. not easy ah.
the main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing. major on the majors.

Lord, help me do all dat You've set for me to.
let me do nothing more, n nothing less.
in my weakness, be my strength, my shelter, my wisdom, my guide, my counsellor, my joy, my song, my peace, my health, my everything.

proverbs 2
6 For the LORD gives wisdom,
and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds victory in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.

WORLD CUP 一失足成千古恨

i have a knack for picking n rooting 4 the losing team dis WC! brazil, germany... now france!

watched @ tampines central BIG screen wif LOADS of people. d MPs came, showed face, shook hands, posed 4 loads of pics...
way bigger n beta than Chjmes last Euro Cup (greece vs Portugal)
last WC i watched it wif Za n other colleagues. this time was supposed to watch wif janice. supposed. cos... hee hee.. i missed d last bus 2 her hse... too cheapo 2 pay midnite cab charges... so watched at Tampines central instead. was kinda fun except dat i sat behind dis gal who noe nuts abt soccer (she asked her bf wat every single stop in d game was abt!). she irritatingly jumps up (2 secs way too early) fr her chair EVERYTIME france is abt 2 score thereby blocking off my view. cant she wait till it s confirmed in?!?!

action was gd. rained during extra time. dun understand france's penalty line-up. how could Trezeguet haf missed?! 一失足成千古恨. left 4 home after italy got in all its penalties. din bother 2watch d awards ceremony. many pp asked me whether i m happy abt outcome. *shrug shoulder* actually i dun really care hah. (unlike wen i found out brazil lost to france)

i think i a bit out of whack. actually cheered wen italy equalised in the 19min. seriously amused (still m) abt Zidane's headbutt-er! check out dis vid on his brawl wif d guy (metarrazi) who scored 4 italy. d italian n french channels showed more clearly dat they exchanged words b4 zidane hit.



i really do like dis guy... i'm sure he is regretting how he had ended his career dis way. 一失足成千古恨!! a pity. Zidane, i salute u nonetheless!
click: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zinedine_Zidane

lessons of the weekend

worship went great today! i realised this... the "bad" worship day n d good ones r actually all in my head... the bad ones are not really bad! the bad worship day i mentioned 2 weeks ago was noticeable only 2 me. my bro n friends said it was gd...oh? *shoulder shrug*
today, praise the Lord His presence was so strong! so many people came up to me to thank me for the worship. i was like huh? y thank me?

today started out shakey... vince forgot to bring the key for the music cupboard... so we had to wait for rescue... set up late, i couldnt hear myself real bad. ears r more blocked today than ytd. but since yesterday i took it fr Him dat He wants me to go ahead despite my illness, i was like ok God... it's Yours. and He really came. it was amazing! tho not without me struggling. told my back-up dat i'll be gross. put my tissue (green with my spit!) on the stand we shared... n my ventolin puff, water bottle etc. was tough cos the phlegm keeps getting stuck in my throat as i sang, i hear as if i m underwater, n i cant breathe properly. i was struggling so bad. But it was really Him at work. even i was so touched.
n today's sermon was so powerful! praise God for His word! shall blog d prophetic word God gave the guest speaker for our church wen pastor email us. wow.

things i ve learnt thru this week of illness: 1. be faithful. 2. God's strength is made perfect in my weakness. i get to see how He works in me, thru me. very cool. if i din obey God n got a last min replacement for worship i wouldnt have seen how God worked thru this. 3. God has appointed specific people to do specific jobs. i feel He has planned in detail who leads worship for when (even tho it seems like it's the music dir who sets the schedule). each worship leader has her own strength n giftings n anointing dat i ve found God place to lead His people to worship at appointed times. i came for worship n came out of this whole experience having a strong sense dat today's worship session was meant by God for me to lead. eg like last week, it seemed dat Angie was ordained to lead, juz like i felt today i was. i would have missed this appointment if i let illness (or anything else eg laziness etc) to get in the way.

praise God for seeing me through today! was so thankful n joyful on my way back. it was amazing cos i was so tired, had chest constriction, cant breathe properly n all... but God saw me through. was refreshed by Rick Warren's morning message, had fruitful meetings (esp the VN one... got me excited abt wat lies ahead for the min n the trip!) n worship pract went great despite me cant hearing myself. finished in record time!

got more meds! 8 kinds! got green, pink, orange, white, dual tone pills! n yes my trustee ventolin puff is out of my shoe box! but will get well. need to anyway... got 2 camps, n a m trip to lead within a month!

feel like i'm coming to a juncture where the road turns n i can see a little more of wat's ahead... exciting!

i think wat excites me is how God is slowly piecing the puzzle tog for me - d stuff He has showed me over these weeks, wat He has placed in my heart. i'll con't 2 b still n wait... n know HE IS GOD! woohoo!

went for Rick Warren's sem today.. was really good... but very tiring.. feeling terrible again.couldnt dong for the night session. so went home to rest. need to sleep.. tmr got ND commissioning n pastor's breakfast.need to be there by 730.
after dinner, tried to prep for tmr's worship pract. my B string snapped! argh! dun have extra. frustrated dat wen i dun have voice to worship, i cant even worship wif an instrument. " all is stripped away, n i simply come... longing juz to bring something dat s of worth, tat will bless Your heart.."

Lord, i've learnt much today. felt like i m onto something here... at the brim of discovering wat U wan me to do... in ASE n med. but my mind and body somehow cannot function properly. help. i have pieces but have cant seem to fit them tog. take away my sinusitis n asthma n all those thick gross mucus. i rebuke the imfirmity in Jesus' name. and claim healing n health. refresh me as i rest tonight. n i entrust tmr's back-to-back meetings into Your hands - co. event, med team mit, MT team mit n worship pract. lead n empower me tmr.
love d song by casting crowns - who am i. Thank You that I'm Yours.

more WC ramblings

the commentator said of Zidane after he scored the winning penalty kick dat put France thru to the finals-
"he didn't look at the players, he didn't even look at the goal keeper. he juz kept his eyes on the ball. such focus....."

Rooney should have watched his temper. kena red card, leave his teammates 2 suffer 4 his mistake. tsk tsk. 2 me, he's 2 b blamed most 4 d lost to portugal. but anyway, England is overrated. whoa beckham resigns? he really is good as captain leh...

Brazil is such a disappointment! I m a samba soccer fan! i enjoy d way they enjoy soccer! see how Cafu or Ronaldinho smile when they make a mistake or get fouled? sigh... but somehow the fire n passion wasnt there. m most disappointed at how Ronaldinho played. "Technically, we have a very good team, very experienced," Brazil coach Carlos Alberto Parreira said. "But when you don't win the title, it's because there has been something missing."
now you say...

this WC has got me watching Portugal's coach - Luiz Felipe Scolari . http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luiz_Felipe_Scolari
Scolari, who lists Sun Tzu's "The Art of War" as one of his favorite books, was the coach who took Brazil to their 2002 WC win. He had coached teams to a record 11 straight World Cup wins before the England match, which goes down as a tie in FIFA's books.

"He's enriched us, increased our confidence," Portugal goalkeeper Ricardo Pereira said. "Every ship has its captain, and he's ours."

y would he want to coach portugal? why would he want to stay 5 years with them (2003-2008)? for he's personal growth? cos he believes in them? Portugal has never won the WC, or any big titles... he took them to d last euro finals against Greece. he turned down coaching england 2 months ago. and talks have it that he'll stay with portugal till '08' Euro. we'll see more of portugal!

i'm looking for kakis to watch WC! who who?? it's so sad to watch a match alone...

somebody, call the plumber

hey wat happened 2 my tagboard?!
i didn't watch france vs portugal. the meds were too strong.
K.O since 10pm last nite.
am feeling terrible today. all clogged up. SOS.
Lord, i need Your touch. Heal me.

world cup

this WC has been one big upset 4 me. brazil out, now germany out?! missed last night's match cos was still unwell.decided 2 take care of my body..slept n missed a gr8 match. well...if i was up,i would've died watching Germany take it's last breath! (was so worked up abt Brazil's exit in d middle of svc!).here's the highlights:

now, shall i watch tonight's game: Portugal vs France? hmmm... tmr got Purpose Driven Church Seminar till 5pm then ASEMOC meeting... nong nong day ahead!

still sick!

2 dayz MC! 5 types of medicine!

Jeremiah 30
7 "But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
8 He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."
9 The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
10 "I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve."

12 A glorious throne, exalted from the beginning,
is the place of our sanctuary.

14 Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed;
save me and I will be saved,
for you are the one I praise.
15 They keep saying to me,
"Where is the word of the LORD ?
Let it now be fulfilled!"
16 I have not run away from being your shepherd;
you know I have not desired the day of despair.
What passes my lips is open before you.