Evan essence is
1. essence of evan (?!) - take away the outer trappings and facade, what i am about.
2. evanescence
ev·a·nesce intr.v. ev·a·nesced, ev·a·nesc·ing, ev·a·nesc·es
To dissipate or disappear like vapor
"Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while & then vanishes away. " - James 4:14
"Man is like a mere breath;His days are like a passing shadow. " - Psalm 144:4
Monday, July 30, 2007
was asking God for wisdom... more wisdom... n daniel 2 spoke to me in my situation.
Then Daniel praised the God of heaven 20 and said:
"Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;
wisdom and power are his.
21 He changes times and seasons;
he sets up kings and deposes them.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning.
22 He reveals deep and hidden things;
he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.
23 I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers:
You have given me wisdom and power,
you have made known to me what we asked of you,
you have made known to us the dream of the king."
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John Piper – Don’t Waste Your Life
God’ s purpose for my life was that I have a passion for God’s glory and that I have a passion for my joy in that glory, and that these two are one passion…. God created me – and you – to live with a single, all-embracing, all transforming passion – namely, a passion to glorify God by enjoying and displaying his supreme excellence in all the spheres of life. Enjoying and displaying are in it, we will display a shell of hypocrisy and create scorn or legalism. But if we claim to enjoy his excellence and do not display it for others to see and admire, we deceive ourselves, because the mark of God-enthralled joy is overflow and expand by extending itself into the hearts of others. The wasted life is the life without a passion for the supremacy of God in all things for the joy of all peoples.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
had a tough time on sun for worship. mic down. but band was good. felt misunderstood by yeep.
am still full of phlegm and v tired despite me sleeping enuf (7,8 hours!) sigh... still overslept for work on mon n tues...!
today's spiritual lesson: restoration of broken relationship with God - do we seek this restoration as desperately as we do a quarrel/misunderstanding with boyfriend or best friend?
had a good team mit. shared deeply with SW n WY.
had a (gr8)x10 time with LB.
fr MY's exhortational email:
Today as I made my way to campus, I was actually feeling mundane and dragging my feet when God reminded me of this vision He gave to me, and the reality of that 6000 un-reached campuses loomed at the back of my mind again. It made me realized that everything I do in __ counts and matters, even the most mundane things, and "normal" things like DG, because I must have faith in God that what I do here will contribute to a movement in ____that will somehow reach the 6000 out there!
I pray that this will drive us to our knees to ask of the Lord for the nations, starting with our own campus! Let's also pray that we will not only be concern with small things like how many people come for our LM etc, and for our students if they do well for their exams but pray that God will help them be a different "breed" of students, who will be a powerful force for His kingdom on your campuses. Please pray because warfare is real.
I know something is going to happen because God is working
from The Biblical Guide to Alternative Medicine by Dr Neil Anderson & Dr Michael Jacobsen, p87:
Gucci, Rolex, Stradivarius – just the mention of these names and one thinks of quality. These brands represent the best in their fields, and their products are so expensive that only the wealthy can afford them. And since ownership communicates a message of prosperity, many people in the world desire to own these products. The problem is that the price is so high that most will not pay it. As a result, there exists a black market of brand-name look-alikes. While these illegal products look like the genuine articles, they are not. Even so, they derive their value from the real thing by how closely their appearance mimics that of the brand-name product.
So it is in the spiritual realm… The Scriptures teach us that there is but one God; all other would-be gods are imposters. The Bible also teaches us that we were designed by God to worship Him and to have a personal relationship with Him. Since we are incomplete without Christ, and were never designed to live independently of God, we have this spiritual vacuum inside, an inner longing to be complete. Only in Christ are we made complete. (Col 1:28, 2:10). Many have never had the opportunity to meet God (the genuine article). Others have been introduced to Him, but they have decided that the price of such a relationship with Him is too high (humbling oneself, acknowledging His sovereignty, confessing and forsaking sin). They prefer to live independently of God and not give up control of their own lives and destinies. Thus, a black-market spiritual realm appeals to many people because it operates independently of God and offers power (without humility), knowledge (without study), and a person doesn’t have to give up sinful habits, materialism and autonomy. However, all it costs is our soul.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
many call Jesus Lord... but few really make Him Lord
when you say you'll follow, you'll obey... whose terms are you working on? yours or the Lord's?
some young people, after coming out of some bible seminar given by some renown, proven bible teachers (doctorate, prof level), can criticise and think that they know better. (eg. teach spiritual gifts using OT verse?!) pls lah... that person has read the Bible more than you have crossed roads, taught more bible classes than all the classes you've ever attended put together! such arrogance! such unteachable, hardened hearts will cause u to miss what the Lord is trying to show you.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
'Evan, praying for u this morning and Deut 28:12 came to mind. have a blessed day. angie."
this was exactly wat i needed! Praise God!
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the book of Habakkuk opens with questions on why God allows evil n suffering, shows us how God answers the prophet's questions. we can from it find hope n faith for whatever situations we face and know that God answers us. "The righteous will live by faith"
read Habakkuk today!
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=42&chapter=1&version=31
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sometimes our successes n answered prayers can be a hindrance. what do i mean?
sometimes we think how God has grown us or answered our prayers will be how God wants to work in a new situation. and when we think that or work towards that, we are boxing God up, and worse, we may miss understanding how God wants to work in this new situation. sometimes answered prayers for success in min or a particular project can cause pride to insiduously well up such that when we approach a new situation, we don't go in with "Lord show us how" but "this is how the Lord has work, so this is how we would......" beware.
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"it's not the hours you put in that count... it's what you put into the hours"
"tough times don't last, tough people do"
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
lessons learnt:
God calls and He works. there's absolutely no way anyone can claim credit. wait n see the wonders wrought by God's mighty hand. He will establish His will. n no one can thwart His plans.
Do not touch the Lord's anointed.
Pray. Lord, have mercy upon us. People are so lost. They need Jesus.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
as i begin my 7th year in full time, pray that i will
know and love God more and more,
be a faithful and effective servant of His.
LORD, I have heard of your fame;
I stand in awe of your deeds, O LORD.
Renew them in our day,
in our time make them known!
- Habakkuk 3:2
Lord i want to see spiritual movements.
"I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it." - John 14:12-14
send revival
establish spiritual movements
Glorify Your name
Friday, July 13, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
off to korea!
Monday, June 25, 2007
will really have to look into managing anger sometime. being angry is not wrong. but how one handles, expresses it... dat s where alot of us trip up. u cant deny it, suppress it, wish it away, pretend it isnt there... neither can u blow up, give it full expression, bring the inner havoc out. check out proverbs 14:29, 15:1, 16:32, 19:11, 22:24, 25;15 at http://www.biblegateway.com/
ok.. need to go... got meeting...
will leave u with writings (taken from a biography of him - A MAN WITHOUT COMPROMISE)of this amazing guy - John G. Lake (u do ur own search on him):
isn’t it marvelous, beautiful, wonderful to realise that mankind can receive into their nature and being the power and Spirit of the living Christ which contains the purging power to drive forth from the being every particle of evil, every sensuous thing in the thought and nature, so that the man becomes as Jesus is. that is what the blood of Jesus is calculated to do. that is what the Spirit of Christ is purposed to do in the soul of a man – the cleansing of the nature from the power and dominion of sin.
On the ground of what Jesus Christ did, the substitutionary sacrifice, God is able to redeem us from our sins. He is able to impart to us His very nature. He is able to give us eternal life, take us into His own family, so that we can call Him “Father”. Not by adoption only, but by an actual birth of our spirit, so we come into actual relationship and union with God and the age-old cry of universal man as been fulfilled.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
was very fed up the past few days cos i needed the comp very badly and i realised how reliant i m to the comp these days. sigh... cannot do work, cannot settle things.
n i m thankful for being able to e comp now... all thanks to liebe for lending me the laptop n inconveniencing herself.
today was a very productive day... back-to-back appts n rushing here n there.... tiring enuf... but i realised how i like to fill my days up so much to challenge n stretch myself n get many things done. i hate not being able to settle stuff.
but alas. i m v fed up now. pls dun mess wif my stuff... juz deal with ur mess. myob. it's so frustrating wen it's not ur mess u have 2 live with.
u ve no idea how much i was looking forward to shopping wif u tmr.
i ve blocked it out. cleared out my schedule. fine fine.
dun ask me the same questions over n over again. u dun rem my answer or u dun like my answer or u think i ll change my answer? i said i would do it means i would do it. i said yes. it is yes.
fed up. fat up. (oh btw, i m the fattest ever in my whole entire life. the weighing machine says so... so i m not making this up! no worries... i'm incorrigible. shant go on a diet.)
wish u wld hung ard even wen i was pissed.
wow... i've turned into one of those people who use blogs to tell pp off... tsk tsk. sigh...
i'm despicable! man, i suc
[transmission will resume once sanity has returned to the blogger. but dun bet on it. blogger does not condone gambling. blogger is now going to contact a higher power for help. the higher power being God- Jesus Christ.]
Friday, June 15, 2007
there are 4 levels of stress:
- no stress -> boredom
- common stress (comfortable level, functional. often needed so as to motivate a person to accomplish a task)
- excitable stress (challenges, pushes a person to accomplish a task.)
- detrimental stress
stress can be caused by fear (fear of failure, past experiences, of what people will think of us etc)
ok... above are juz stuff i came across dat i'm about to delete or throw away.. thot i'd juz type out some points i wanna rem here.
went on Star Cruise (went to penang n phuket) with cousins and cousins' cousins. LWK, Hui2, Goody n Julia. was so fun. something i really needed... n i really LLLLOOOOOVVVEEEE the sea! so it's a hol tailor-made for me. gorgeous sunsets, sea, mountains... n... oh... the glorious food... great service... wonderful company. m so thankful to God!
man... the whole time u can feel the vibrations of the ship... esp when journalling, sleeping... n esp when i was on the toilet bowl. haha... n seriously... m feeling a little land sick! i kinda get this drifting feeling. which is funny cos i ve been on long open sea travelling more othen than anyone... maybe i'd go throw up right now... haha
now readying myself for youth camp tmr... n scrambling to get some work done before that.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
you'll never come this way again... how profound!
ok ok.... here's wat i had wanted to blog:
was flipping thru n reading the highlighted portions of the book "Partners in Prayer" by Max Lucado n tot i'd type this out for u to ponder thru:
When we remove idols in our lives, we become ripe for personal revival.
...to know that something in your life is an idol is to ask yourself “Would I be willing to give this thing up if God asked me to?”
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
m glad my sis updated our Norton subscription, bro borrowed a HD n backed-up and reinstalled progs... thank you guys!
had a very good church leaders' retreat on sun n mon at SAF Yacht Club. it's so beautiful... can stare out at sea the whole day cos our meeting room and bedrooms face the sea. n, it's beauitful at changi... was at sembawang yacht club... not as nice. so glad!
learnt alot from the speaker on the book of Joshua. a book no unfamiliar to us.
(Jos 1:6)
"YOU will lead" - you, not another. specific. a call.
"you WILL lead" - command, certainty, time specific (there is a kairos moment taht God has ordained u to)
"you will LEAD" - what you are called to do. (not inspire, stand-in, facilitate, cajole, but LEAD)
we often claim the "be strong n courageous" part... but have we realised that we too are called to lead?
carry the ark and stand in the river jordan at flood state? march ard jericho with the levities in front instead of the fighting soldiers? how is this going to bring abt wat we are supposed to get accomplished? Juz obey. "How" is God's specialty.
definition of success: Success is doing what God wants u to. 100% guaranteed. doing what God wants u to today, tmr...
"i never take on more than i can do without a calm spirit" - John Wesley. need to ponder abt dat... the leaders' retreat made me realise once again that indeed i m supposed to be in the ministries i am in right now. juz dat i feel so terribly stretched n flustered. how? pray for a calm spirit then! (n a bigger capacity n wisdom n strength!) since i m more sure now than before this wed that i m taking on wat God wants me to.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
anyway. nvm... if anything i believe she left wif a better understanding of the gift God has given her. she is a star... dat she shines real bright.
anyway... today's my sis's birthday!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muacks
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
back to AM...
i predict... *looks into crystal ball* melinda doolittle n jordin sparks!
juz realised melinda's face is HUGE! when she stood beside the host... now wats his name?? haha... d size of her face was 2.5x his! shocker.
n jordin is juz huge! anyway... way to go gals!
Friday, May 11, 2007
Fact no.1:
as each bird flaps its wings, it creats an uplift draft for the bird following. by flying in a "V" formation, the while flock adds a greater flying range than if one bird flew alone.
Lesson no.1:
People who share a common direction and sense of community can get where they're going quicker and more easily because they are travelling on the strength of one another.
Fact no. 2:
Whenever a goose falls out of formation, it suddnely feels the drag and resistance of trying to fly alone and quickly gets back into formation to take advantage of the uplifting power of the bird immediately in fornt.
Lesson no.2:
If we have as much sense as geese, we will stay in formation and be wiling to accept help when we need it and give help when it is needed.
Fact no.3:
When the lead goose gets tired, it rotates back into the formation, and another goose flies in the point position.
Lesson no. 3:
Geese instinctively share the task of leadership and do not resent the leader.
Fact no.4:
The geese in formation honk from behind to encourage those up front to keep up their speed.
Lesson no.4:
We need to make sure our honking from behind is encouraging and not something else.
Fact no.5:
When a goose gets sick, is wounded or is shot down, two geese drop out of formation and follow it down to earth to ehlp and protect it. they stay with their disabled companion until it is able to fly again or dies. they then lauch out on their own or with another formation or catch up with the flock.
Lesson no.5:
If we have as much sense as geese, we, too, will stand by one another in difficult times and help the one who has dropped out to regain his place in the formation.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Jeremiah 35
5 Then I set bowls full of wine and some cups before the men of the Recabite family and said to them, "Drink some wine."
6 But they replied, "We do not drink wine, because our forefather Jonadab son of Recab gave us this command: 'Neither you nor your descendants must ever drink wine. 7 Also you must never build houses, sow seed or plant vineyards; you must never have any of these things, but must always live in tents. Then you will live a long time in the land where you are nomads.' 8 We have obeyed everything our forefather Jonadab son of Recab commanded us. Neither we nor our wives nor our sons and daughters have ever drunk wine 9 or built houses to live in or had vineyards, fields or crops. 10 We have lived in tents and have fully obeyed everything our forefather Jonadab commanded us.
12 Then the word of the LORD came to Jeremiah, saying: 13 "This is what the LORD Almighty, the God of Israel, says: Go and tell the men of Judah and the people of Jerusalem, 'Will you not learn a lesson and obey my words?' declares the LORD. 14 'Jonadab son of Recab ordered his sons not to drink wine and this command has been kept. To this day they do not drink wine, because they obey their forefather's command. But I have spoken to you again and again, yet you have not obeyed me. 15 Again and again I sent all my servants the prophets to you. They said, "Each of you must turn from your wicked ways and reform your actions; do not follow other gods to serve them. Then you will live in the land I have given to you and your fathers." But you have not paid attention or listened to me. 16 The descendants of Jonadab son of Recab have carried out the command their forefather gave them, but these people have not obeyed me.'
if a people can obey a mere man so totally,
how can it be that God's pp - who have been saved by His grace from death and bondage, tasted His goodness, claim they love Him and live for Him - not obey Him ? n i m not even talking abt the Israelites. i'm talking abt u & i.
was on the bus to NUS, reflecting abt something when this hit me: be careful what you open your heart to. dont fall for the line "what is there to lose?" cos, u really never know. your heart's pretty easily conquered by all the wrong things. alot more is at stake.
"your heart must grow in tandem to your vision" - KH at famiy night (tonight)
lessons from the geese... akan datang.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
BLAMESTORMING: Sitting around in a group, discussing why a deadline was missed or a project failed, and who was responsible.
ADMINISPHERE: The rarefied organizational layers beginning just above the rank and file. Decisions that fall from the adminisphere are often profoundly inappropriate or irrelevant to the problems they were designed to solve.
404: Someone who's clueless. From the World Wide Web error Message "404 Not Found," meaning that the requested site could not be located.
OHNOSECOND: That minuscule fraction of time in which you realize that you've just made a BIG mistake. (Like after hitting send on an email by mistake).
MOUSE POTATO : The on-line, wired generation's answer to the couch potato.