could i written and sung by Kim McMechan (Vineyard Songs 2001) 

"Fall on me" Women in Worship *Live

Could i just sit here a while

know that there's nothing that i need to say

safe in the knowledge that You know my ways

Love me completely, no need to hide a thing

Could i just stay here awhile

Letting You melt away all of my fears

I feel Your comfort when You are so near

I'll hide myself in this shelter You've made for me

Could i, could i

Could i just kneel here a while

Doing what i was created to do

Bowing in reverence, i long to adore You

willingly giving all that i can surrender

Could i just rest here a while

Letting You whisper my burdens away

in all my journeys there's no other place

where i find refuge, strength for my weary heart

could i, could i

oh, Could i just let You wipe my burdens

Could i let You whisper my tears away

could i just let You wipe my burdens away

Jehovah (Yahweh or Lord) The Self-Existent one (Ex 3:14,15)

Jehovah-Elohim  The Lord God, Creator-Redeemer (Gen 2:4)

Jehovah-Jireh The Lord will provide (Gen 22:14)

Jehovah-Rapha The Lord that heals (Ex 15:26)

Jehovah-Nissi The Lord my banner (Ex 17:15)

Jehovah-Kanna The Lord who is jealous (Ex 20:5)

Jehovah-Mekaddeskum The Lord who sanctifies (Ex 13:13)

Jehovah-Shalom The Lord is our peace (Judges 6:24)

Jehovah-Shaphat  The Lord is our judge (Judges 11:27)

Jehovah-Saboath The Lord of Hosts (1 Sam 1:3)

Jehovah-Elyon The Lord most high (Ps 7:17)

Jehovah-Roi The Lord my shepherd (Ps 23:1)

Jehovah-Hosenu The Lord our maker (Ps 95:6)

Jehovah-Gibbor The Lord is mighty (Is 42:13)

Jehovah-Tsidkenu The Lord our righteousness (Jer 23:6)

Jehovah-Shammah The Lord is there or everpresent (Ez 48:35)

Jehovah-Jehoshua-Christos Jehovah's Saviour Anointed (Matt 1:21)

Jesus loves me this I know
Phra ye Su Rak Chan runn Nea,
Phra kam pii mii sarn wai tea
Mea tua chan nan on yon yang
Tea phra Christ son rit khem kheang

Phra Ye su en duu rak chan
Sin phra chon pur perd sa-wan
Doei yom tai bon mai kang ken
Chuie dek tang lai pon bap wen

Phra Ye Su rak Chan nak naa
Pen dang nan tuk wan wa la
Chan phuie long phra one lea hen
Sa det ma ra sa chau yen

Phra ye su rak chan yuu klai
Mi ting khwang ni tang dai dai
Chan ja rak jon tung wan nan
Phra ong ma pa pai sa wan

chorus:
Phra Ye su Rak Chan, Phra Ye Su rak chan
Phra Kam pii sung sorn,
Jung ruu dan nan nea non


God is so good
Phra jau sean dee
Phra jau sean dee
Phra jau sean dee
Song ean dee taw chan

it's a surprise but Rocky Master is becoming my fav hang-out n min place. it doesnt play music, there's hardly any business so i can have my meetings n bible studies in a quiet environment!

i need 2 not let God slip from my mind. =)

well, i m busier than i had thought. now i m doing "2 jobs" at least. due to structural and organisation glitch if i can put it dat way. boss and team are very nice about it and have been asking how to lighten my work. may God grant us wisdom to know how to.

during today's prayer meeting. oh after typing dat sentence, i realised i have had few prayer meetings today! ok the med one. God is moving in certain areas pretty clearly. evangelism. He has burdened the MMReps for it. i need to know how to work alongside God on this. need 2 really seek Him for tactical plans.

i need to rest. =)

how did the goal of entertaining come to play such a big role in the christian world when it is not even found in the Bible????
in our bid to follow Jesus, are we sure that our actions show that we are modeling after Him or the world's?

Did Jesus try to entertain people to keep his popularity ratings up? did He use humour to engage people?
did He try to be funny? throw in a joke to spice things up, to keep his audience hooked? did he strive to be known as a funny, cool person?

why do we find ourselves trying so hard to keep the congregation entertained? instead of giving them the truth of the WORD and rely on the conviction of the Holy Spirit to draw them and keep them coming?

Entertainment is such a lousy substitute for joy and meaning. it's giving a bored generation what the world is actually better than us at giving. but what the world cannot give, are we going to give?

Peter Simon answered, "to whom shall we go? For You have the words of eternal life." John 6:6

i juz stumbled upon dictionary.com's word of the day. n it is:
evanescent
ev-uh-NES-unt, adjective,Liable to vanish or pass away like vapor; fleeting.

haha. wat a reminder. so many things in my life are fleeting. why am i so caught up with them?
there are those that are eternal, that are worth my while to take time for them. why am i so unwilling to do so?


God has, through the women's retreat, shown me His love and the love of His body. it was such a refreshing time. we so often know... but we dont really KNOW.

God is calling me back to WORSHIP. to reckless, self-abandoning worship of HIM who is the lover of my soul.

we are all born originals - why is it so many of us die copies? - Edward Young

you cant have the liver wanting to be and doing the work of the gall bladder.
in the body of Christ, if organisation loses sight of what's God's purpose for it, it begins to copy another. God has called each having its own distinctives. you cant have piracy in the kingdom of God. you'll miss fulfilling your call and you rob another of his. in God's kingdom, we are all complements, not competition. those who do not reap together scatters.

spore table tennis goes into finals FINALLY! was a very good match against the south koreans. feng tianwei saved the day
we ll have to wait till 17 aug for the finals. let s hope for a gold for spore. it s been a long wait. put spore on the medal tables darlings!

was a good off-n-lieu for me. rest, pack table. enjoyed my own company. still got lots. would ve been better if they werent burning the joss papers. had to close all the windows so it felt as if i was also playing a game cos i seemed to be perspiring more than li jai wei. haha.

still coughing. maybe i ll go buy more lozenges. the burning doesnt help. i m v v sensitive. sigh.

postponed my date with the dentist. maybe tmr?? still have phobia even tho i ve been working with them for so many years. it's the thing abt pain and the chair... scary stuff. haha.

can u believe that i actually get carsick when i travel in buses or cabs even if it is a short distance?!!

sitting in coffeebean
pondering about life
intermittently breaking into prayer,
half-dizzy half-brained
nearly desperate, nearly lost
almost recovering almost gone

*disclaimer* this is not a pathetic attempt at poetry. it's juz me typing what is my state right now.

i think i m a proud and arrogant person. sigh...
i m disappointed at my proud arrogant thoughts, attitudes, actions.
how difficult it is to love and to be kind, to extend grace, to be patient.
O Lord, how hard it is to humble oneself. Help me Lord.
what's more difficult is how not to exalt oneself but to remain contrite. Help me Lord.
what a wretched person i m.



so many people are asking me whether You have spoken to me about a career change. like some cyclical thing, i get bugged by numerous job offers and people asking me have i heard from God, has He asked me to move on, what are my plans, how long will i stay in...etc. well, here's my public statement: i havent heard from God about any change in ministry/work. if you think you've heard on my behalf, please do let me know.

We have a God who delights in impossibilities." by Billy Sunday.

quick recap of days passed: (notes for self)

felt "they put burdens on people they themselves refuse to help lift". so wanted 2 quit (24 july)
next day felt uplifted by God. and renewed strength 2 do all the impossible tasks (25 july)
felt next time give a better answer to "how r u doing?" rather than "will be better" or "good" etc. eg"i am finding hard to find rest or keep my sabbath." put into words the struggle of my heart as much as possible. to help yourself and others. (KH asks)
if its ur project/idea, see thru it yourself. dun allow it 2 b sub out. (OIC vids)
lost voice for 4 days. couldnt do OIC presentation, couldnt lead worship today. now coughing like crazy.
the same day i lost my voice, i also fell down n sprained my ankle.
lesson learnt -
God ll vindicate. do your job. if it's not but heaped onto you, watch. God ll vindicate.
my immobility brought new insights into how i could ve caused my own needless energy loss n lack of rest.
i dun think much n juz do if i can do. but my sprained ankle caused me to consider the necessity of a particular action. n hence there's alot i decided not to do. if i was mobile, i wouldnt even have sat myself down to think. then perhaps there's much more on my plate that i dont need 2 do. hmmm...

now starting a brand new week. gave up BSF. or rather finally got kicked out. 3 consec weeks of absence.

focus.

yesterday was my off in lieu. i didnt realise how exhausted i was until i woke up at 5.30PM!! yesh! 5.30pm! i slept more than 15 hours! had planned to have a day of silence and solitude but God and my body conspired against me to have silence n inactivity of another kind. woke up feeling refreshed like i never felt in a long time.

i realised i ve carried around a huge load of guilt and disappointments generated from high standards for self, for ministry for everything. further meditation and reflection got me back to Heb 12:1-2, my freshmen camp's theme. "lay aside every weight..." so that can run properly ah...

need 2 better draw margins... say "NO" so that i can better say my "YES"

working 12 hour days again... need to pace. too crazy b4 sch start. cant imagine how when matric happens!

now, inbetween meetings. went 2 NTUC n did my grocery shopping cos these weeks i end after shop closes. so now i'm a cross between aunty and cosmopolitan white collar wage-earner in BK with bags of groceries beside me, typing furiously away on my macbook n shoving lunch into my mouth...

fix your eyes on Christ, the author and perfector of your faith..........

"Do you seek any further reward beyond that of having pleased God? In truth, you know not how great a good it is to please Him." by John Chrysostom (347-407 a.d.)

To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable, because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you." - C.S. Lewis

we've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
we've added years to life, not life to years.
we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.
we pane more, but accomplish less.
we've learned to rush, but not to wait.
these are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throw-away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies.
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
it is a time when there is much in the show window
and nothing in the stockroom.
- unknown

if the work you are doing obscures your sense of God, pause.
work not out of fear, worry, stress.
work out of faith, a sense of anticipation of what God will do.
fix your eyes on Jesus.
cant see Him? move to get a better view.

some1 challenged me on something dat i wanted n believed, yet my actions dun really reflect that.

i want people, on hearing a message that i deliver, say, "what a great God!" and not "what a good speaker!"
not technics, not theatrics, not training...
but power, but abiding, but presence of God. so it's about walking close to God.
not work on your tone, your eye contact, your powerpoint presentations etc. you work on knowing the word of God.

if u are running a spiritual race, you dont train in human methods.

i must watch what i put my focus on.

i must relearn to consider rubbish as rubbish.
philippians 3

will b working thru the weekends again. sat n sun retreat. last weekend was games dry run in NUS. next week will be "D" weekend b4 "D" camp! yikes! will have 2 pace myself properly. it s gonna b crazy.
i cant believe how much work i gotta do with more n more "mini" projects coming my way. but wat is amazing is dat i m feeling better abt it.... like a runner warming up to his race in the 5th, 6th km where he ups the tempo. ok steady now, evan...

run the race with perseverance, fixing your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of your faith.

i got my dream band for worship tmr! and we had such a fun time jamming today. they are so good! every single instrumentalist, backup vocalist! my dream band! haha.

God will U come and be enthroned in the praises of Your saints? come Lord, come.

Testify to Love - Avalon


Testify to Love - Wynona Judd in Touched by an angel (psalm 151)


oh i have to keep blogging vids! a Wynona judd's version of one of my fav songs! except the music is 1.something secs faster than the visual. sigh... this contains her testimony too.



blogged the mercy me i can only imagine MV b4 so i shant put it here again.

busy n stressed out right now. so if u r reading this, juz say a prayer for me ok?