Wednesday, May 28, 2008

hero. love this song. (if u ve been watching this blog for a long time u'd know i ve put up this song many times!) blind basker at simei mrt was singing it so beautifully. 
i can be your hero, baby
i can kiss away the pain
i will stand by you forever
you can take my breath away

non-heros need not apply.
FP - Wednesday, May 28
LONDON (AFP) - - Aid workers and peacekeepers are sexually abusing young children in war zones and disaster zones but their actions are largely going unpunished, a British charity said Tuesday.

"Children as young as six are trading sex with aid workers and peacekeepers in exchange for food, money, soap and, in very few cases, luxury items such as mobile phones," Save the Children said in a report.

It also highlighted instances of rape, verbal sexual abuse, child pornography and prostitution and trafficking of youngsters, many of whom are poor, displaced or orphaned by conflict.

The group said the scale of abuse was "significant". Its findings were based on work with hundreds of youngsters from Ivory Coast, southern Sudan and Haiti, said the charity's chief executive Jasmine Whitbread.

"This research exposes the despicable actions of a small number of perpetrators who are sexually abusing some of the most vulnerable children in the world, the very children they are meant to protect," she added.

"It is hard to imagine a more grotesque abuse of authority or flagrant violation of children's rights."
The charity said "endemic failures" in responding to the abuse that was officially reported were letting down the abused, and better reporting mechanisms should be introduced.

Fear of aid and assistance being withdrawn, being stigmatised by the local community, fear of reprisals, lack of faith in the response or simply ignorance about how to report abuse were also major factors, it added.

Whitbread said the United Nations, the wider world as well as humanitarian and aid agencies have made important commitments to tackle the problem in recent years.

But most had failed to turn their promises into action, she added, calling for all agencies working in emergencies, including her own, to "own up to the fact that they are vulnerable to this problem and tackle it head on".

The UN Department for Peacekeeping Operations was said to be the group most likely to be responsible for abuse. Save the Children said there had been 15 claims against its staff and partners last year, of which three were upheld.

UNPKO spokesman Nick Birnback said it was "entirely unacceptable" that those sent to help the most vulnerable are instead causing grievous harm.

"Clearly a lot more has to be done," he told BBC radio but he rejected allegations that the problem was widespread and those responsible were getting away with it.

"The vast majority of UN peacekeepers all over the world, of which we have over 100,000 now, serve with honour and courage in very difficult situations and don't engage in this unacceptable behaviour," he added.

The reputation of UN peacekeepers has been tarnished in the past by cases of sexual abuse against women, notably in Democratic Republic of Congo, Ivory Coast and Haiti.

In November last year, the UN said that more than 100 Sri Lankan soldiers were to be sent home over charges that they paid for sex while stationed in Haiti.

After turning a blind eye for decades to cases of abuse by its peacekeepers -- the world body recommended in 2005 that erring soldiers be punished, their salaries frozen and a fund set up to help any women or girls made pregnant.

The "zero tolerance" policy towards sexual misconduct includes a "non-fraternisation" rule barring them from sex with locals.

It was brought in after revelations in December 2004 that peacekeepers in DRC were involved in the sexual abuse of 13-year-old girls in exchange for eggs, milk or cash sums as low as one dollar.

YOU GIVE PEACE A BAD NAME

Sunday, May 18, 2008



gonna live my life, like everyday's the last...
for no reason why, i cant cry hard enough...
the truth does not alter with your inability to believe

the barrier between your life now and the life you've always wanted is YOU. 

the power to change does not come from you. 

there is no such thing as a self-made man. just because he is successful in his work, probably made more phenomenal by a rags to riches story, doesnt mean he made himself. what he did succeed in making is merely a name for himself. which, he probably likes more than the one given to him at birth. or maybe not. can u imagine calling a tiger, with 100% successful hunts/kills, a self-made tiger? i think "self-made man" is the most used, most delusive paradox. dun get it? think self created creature.




Friday, May 02, 2008

Bernard of Clairvaux(1091- 1153), Sermons on the Song of Songs:
We must not give to other what we have received for ourselves; nor must we keep for ourselves that which we have received to spend on others… You dissipate and lse what is your own, if without right intention and form some wrong motive, you hasten to outpour yourself on others when your own soul is only half-filled.

If you are wise therefore you will show yourself reservoir and not a canal. For a canal pours out as fast as it takes in; but a reservoir waits till it is full before it overflows, and so communicates its surplus… we have all too few such reservoirs in the Church at present, though we have canals in plenty… they [canals] desire to pour out when they themselves are not yet impoured; they are readier to speak than to listen, eager to teach that which they do not know, and most anxious to exercise authority on others, although they have not learnt to rule themselves… let the reservoir of which we spoke just now take pattern from the spring; for the spring does not form a stream or spread into a lake unti it is brimful… be filed thyself; then, but discreetly, mind, pour thy fullness out of thy fullness help me if thou canst; and if not, spare thyself.

Ole Hallesby(1879- 1961), Prayer:
Prayer and helplessness are inseparable. Only he who is helpless can truly pray.

Listen to this, you who are often so helpless that you do not know what to do. At times you do not even know how to pray. Your mind seems full of sin and impurity. Your mind is preoccupied with what the Bible calls the world. God and eternal and holy things seems so distant and foreign to you that you feel that you add sin to sin be desiring to approach God in such a state of mind. Now and then you must ask yourself the question, “Do I really desire to be set free from the lukewarmness of my heart and worldly life? Is not my Christian life always lukewarm and half-hearted for the simple reason that deep down in my heart I desire it that way?

Thus an honest soul struggles against the dishonesty of his own being. He feels himself so helplessly lost that his prayers freeze on his very lips.
Listen, my friend! Your helplessness is your best prayer. It calls from your heart to the heart of God with greater effect than all your uttered pleas. He hears it from the very moment that you are seized with helplessness, and He becomes actively engaged at once in hearing and answering the prayer of your helplessness.

Marva Dawn, The Sense of the Call:
If we lack prayerfulness, then the solution is not to hammer ourselves with guilt that we are so bad at it, but to engage in practices that help us know God. We receive grace best by watching it descend from God rather than focusing on our reception of it. 

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Austria. woman kept hostage by her father for 24 years! click this for the CNN report of the article below

AMSTETTEN, Austria (CNN) -- Police in Austria have confirmed that three children freed from a cellar in which their mother had been imprisoned and raped by her own father for 24 years had never seen daylight.

Austrian police spokesman Franz Polzer told CNN that the 73-year-old man, known as Mr. F., admitted holding his daughter, Elisabeth F., 42, hostage in the windowless cell and fathering seven children by her.

"The mother had memories [of the outside world] and got used to the situation," Polzer told a press conference Monday afternoon. "The others knew nothing else."

Elisabeth F. told police that she and her three children Kerstin, 19; Stefan, 18; and Felix, 5, did not see the light of day during their entire time in captivity underneath the building in Amstetten, a rural town about 150 km (93 miles) west of Vienna.

Elisabeth F. is described as "very disturbed" and having trouble talking to police about her ordeal, reports CNN correspondent Fred Pleitgen. She went missing in 1984, when she was 18 years old, police have said. Watch police describe House of Horror investigation. »

More details also emerged at the news conference about the basement dungeon in which the daughter and her children were kept -- and how her father managed to keep them captive for more than two decades.

The authorities have revealed that the prison, constructed in the basement of the 1960s building, ran underneath both the building itself and the garden outside.

The entrance was via a small door, hidden behind cupboards in the basement, controlled by an electronic keyless-entry system. Polzer said that the prison was hard to find, even if someone was looking for it, and had been soundproofed.

"Even though they shouted and called they were not in a position to let anyone hear them," Polzer told the press conference.

Polzer said that the father made clear to his wife and other children that the area was out of bounds and they were not to go into the basement. He bought food and took it to his captives in the evening.

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Detectives made the grim discovery about the cellar earlier this month after Kerstin was hospitalized in Amstetten after falling unconscious and taken to a hospital in Amstetten by her grandfather with a SOS note from her mother hidden on her.

A DNA test was later carried out which revealed her grandfather, Mr. F., was also her father, according to ORF, Austria's state-run news agency.

That sparked a police investigation, which revealed that Mr. F. fathered at least six children with his daughter, forcing her and three of the surviving children to live in the cellar of his house, according to ORF's Peter Schmitzberger.

On Sunday, police searched the hidden rooms where Mr. F. admitted he kept his daughter and their children, including sleeping quarters, a kitchen and a bathroom, which Mr. F. told police he built, Polzer said.

Amstetten police say they were put on Mr. F.'s trail following an anonymous tip off. They apprehended the pair on Saturday near the hospital and once police assured the daughter that she would never have contact with her father again, "she was able to tell the whole story," Schmitzberger said.

Elisabeth F. said her father began sexually abusing her at age 11. On August 8, 1984 -- weeks before she was reported missing -- her father enticed her into the basement, where he drugged her, put her in handcuffs and locked her in a room, she told police.

For the next 24 years, she was constantly raped by her father, resulting in the six surviving children, she said, according to the police statement.

She also told police she gave birth to twins in 1996, but one of the babies died a few days later as a result of neglect, and Mr. F. removed the infant's body and burned it in an oven.

She told police that only her father supplied her and her children with food and clothing, and that she did not think his wife knew anything about their situation

Mr. F. lived upstairs with his wife, Rosemarie F., who police said had no idea about her husband's other family living in the cellar. The couple adopted three of the children that Mr. F. had with his daughter, according to police. He told his wife that his missing daughter had dropped the unwanted children off at the house because she could not take care of them, police said.

When Kerstin fell ill, Mr. F. apparently told his wife and the hospital that his "missing" daughter had dropped off the sick girl on his doorstep.

In an effort to find out about Kerstin's condition, the hospital asked the media to put out a bulletin requesting any information about the girl or her missing mother, attorney general Gerhard Sedlacek told NTV.

Sometime later, Mr. F. brought Elisabeth F. out of the cellar, telling his wife that she had returned home with her two children after a 24-year absence, police said.

He took Elisabeth F. to the hospital to talk with doctors about Kerstin's condition, and at that point, authorities became aware of her situation, Sedlacek said.

more on it:
click on this for news coverage of the same shocking crime on asia one

pray for them. pray for the team of psychologists helping the victims. pray for salvation, healing. for everyone including the dad. pray for many others who are in such abuse!

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Is prayer your steering wheel or your spare tire?" - Corrie Ten Boom

my med students see death during their studies in the hospital n i quote one of them here "the tragedy is not in the death but in the life." sometimes we think it is sad when some1 dies. dun get me wrong, it is indeed sad. but sometimes, the life that was lived was a sadder tale than how death came upon the person. how do you live?
Jesus said, "i came that they may have life and have it to the full. " John 10:10 how do you live life and live it to the full? do you know Him who claimed "I m the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6)"?

(blogged the above on 21 april but didnt published it)
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my fren's mum passed away suddenly. severe stroke in the day then passed on in the night. she was younger than my mum. i was a little shakened. fren was having her 2nd baby due in 2 weeks' time n she is in a terrible state now. wanted to go n be there for her. but finding myself too tired n dry right now to offer her anything.

came back from a team retreat on fri. most of us went into it kicking n screaming. well, not literally. but nearly. but all of us agreed it was a good time of fellowship. did work a little. not too much to cause us to feel repulsed. for me, i havent laughed so much in a long time. i missed laughing. some of u might be surprised cos i do laugh v easily n heartily. well, yeah. where did all the mirth go?

the working part of the retreat made me question so much. n i asked more questions than we manage to find answers for. there were so much uncertainty n hesitation from me n SW. we r still v raw from a v draining acad year. the late night talks with her were so good. i didnt realise how fearful n tired we ve gotten. still reeling from last year.

the workshops n team birkman were good. still trying to find my footing in the new team n coming new year. new role, new team. so much apprehension, so much past baggage. so much fear n hurt. gotta trust God to help us heal n move on in His strength.

came back v tired. planned to get back to office to get some accounts n IT things done. but was SO beat. slept from 11-3pm. then struggled to go out. came home n immediately slept from 11pm last night-12.30pm today! so darn tired! can u believe it?

hoping right now that today or whatever's left of it can be productive. need to prep the 2nd session of a message which i blew last week. i so desperately need clarity, not juz for the message but for my life.

so many questions, so little time.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

on leave today n d rest of the week.
went down to NUS at 830. bumped in XL n Grace on the train. saved a trip to go n view her wedding day photos. she is the only fren whose wedding i helped out dat didnt get 2 c wat went on! well well...
met the M1s b4 their physio paper. had McGriddles meal for breakfast in eng. was wonderfully surprised by the the maple syrup in the pancake thingys... went down to mass media spent $217.26 on books! i got myself a whole lot of reading 2 do! haha. well, not all for myself. also as gifts 4 others.

somehow i seemed 2 b so famished 4 books after the seemingly slow rate of reading since the beginning of this year due 2 busyness n fatigue. all this l change. i ve finished 4 books since last sat! they're rather easy reads tho. yet, i ve gleaned alot fr them - a sense of gratitude n appreciation for my mum, for those i hold dear, for the everyday small blessings in my life yet BIG in the way they hold me thru the grind of living, a new awe at Creation (Genesis), a tribute to friendship and love. i felt, after my first novel on sat, as if my brain went on a holiday. sometimes when u bring yourself on a hol, your brain doesnt really go on a hol... u know wat i mean? reading is to my brain like a ice-cold drink to my body on a hot day. so darn refreshing!

went for facial after my few hours combing thru bookshelves. was so very tired. came home 2 sleep till american idol. slept thru 5 missed calls n not a few sms-es even tho my hp was right by my ear. tho now it seems my day has turned into night once again. hope i can go back 2 sleep in a few hours' time instead of when the sun is next up.

had a rather fruitful day nonwithstanding. felt it a gr8 timing 2 begin fasting lunch with LB today n finally a renewed sense of purpose n passion came flooding back as i prayed. this i so desperately need cos it's the biggest reason for my tiredness n fatigue. i know of pp who can drift thru life without much thought on purpose, much less on passion. yet for me n some others i know, it's a slow but sure death for us when the 2 "P" words dissipate.

O Lord, come, direct us, renew us. help us 2 pray once again even tho words may fail. we push past our disappointments, our weariness, our questions n press on in to seek You. refresh us dat we may want 2 ask once again, dat we may know again. wipe away the tears, the grime, the cuts n bruises. make us lie down in green pastures, lead us to quiet waters. restore our soul.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

the best proof of Christ's presence in lives is the costly love flowing out of us. - John Sater, staff of CCC, Here's Life inner city



AMERICAN IDOL gives back FINAL 8 actually sang "shout to the Lord"! but instead of starting of with the actual lyrics "My Jesus, My SAviour" they sang "My Shepherd, my Saviour"... but it s "wow!" still! singing a worship song on TV to the world! way 2 go! the show was so clearly christian... mariah carey sang some v christian song too... actually i didnt watch the show. heard fr it fr my gals...checked out youtube... n praised God. ahaha.

Monday, April 14, 2008

time to blog~!
4 the 1st time (dat i can rem), i didnt have the "urge" to blog. i was on this chill pill. juz wanted not to do anything much.
so yeah... finally the said urge came back! dun u juz heave a sigh of relief? hha.yeah... i was in tis weird state right... n i didnt wan to do much n also feeling tired physically (oh m still recovering fr bronchitis. puffing my puffs still. n yes i mean puffs. plural.) so after a long day in a prayer min session n a seminar on sat, started reading A THOUSAND SPLENDID SUNS. maybe cos i was so tired, i didnt wan 2 pack my table, embark on my to-do list, or hack thru my work... so i decided 2 juz read... n read n read. finished it in a night. a very woeful night i must say. i cried so hard n loud, my bro said it felt as if some1 REALLY passed away. it's such a sad tale! so sad dat i cried the first few minutes i woke up this morning recalling the story. so darn sad la! but i think it s better than kiterunner. i felt kiterunner was a little OTT (over the top)! rescuing sohrab. well, it's like Hosseini is fixated on the number "1000". in kiterunner- "for you a thousand times over!" Hassan to Amir, then at the end of the book, Amir to Sohrab. thousand splendid suns -the title taken from a poem.

This poem was written in the 17th Century by Saib-e-Tabrizi

KABUL
(Translated by Dr. Josephine Davis)
Ah! How beautiful is Kabul encircled by her arid mountains
And Rose, of the trails of thorns she envies
Her gusts of powdered soil, slightly sting my eyes
But I love her, for knowing and loving are born of this same dust

My song exhalts her dazzling tulips
And at the beauty of her trees, I blush
How sparkling the water flows from Pul-I-Bastaan!
May Allah protect such beauty from the evil eye of man!

Khizr chose the path to Kabul in order to reach Paradise
For her mountains brought him close to the delights of heaven
From the fort with sprawling walls, A Dragon of protection
Each stone is there more precious than the treasure of Shayagan

Every street of Kabul is enthralling to the eye
Through the bazaars, caravans of Egypt pass
One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs
And the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls

Her laughter of mornings has the gaiety of flowers
Her nights of darkness, the reflections of lustrous hair
Her melodious nightingales, with passion sing their songs
Ardent tunes, as leaves enflamed, cascading from their throats

And I, I sing in the gardens of Jahanara, of Sharbara
And even the trumpets of heaven envy their green pastures



then, it's as if one wasnt enough, i spent sometime today at borders reading FOR ONE MORE DAY by mitch albom. man... i nearly finished it too. so yeah... its on my mind now... n tho i was so cheapskate enuf 2 sit at borders to read, i wanna buy DAT book! i think it is a must read! for all of us mummy-ingrates!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

"I have but one candle of life to burn, and I would rather burn it out in a land filled with darkness than in a land flooded with light" -- John Keith Falconer

"God's work done in God's way will never lack God's supply" -- Hudson Taylor

"God isn't looking for people of great faith, but for individuals ready to follow Him" -- Hudson Taylor

"God uses men who are weak and feeble enough to lean on him." -- Hudson Taylor

"The Great Commission1 is not an option to be considered; it is a command to be obeyed" -- Hudson Taylor

"He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose" -- Jim Elliot, missionary martyr who lost his life in the late 1950's trying to reach the Auca Indians of Ecuador

"If Jesus Christ be God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him." -- C.T. Studd

Sunday, March 23, 2008


SACRIFICE - Bob Fitts

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unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains a grain, but if it dies, it produces much grain... Jn 12:24

it s v easy to ask a right question with the wrong slant. a theo-centred question can turn to a ego-centric one all too easily.
what happens if ______ no longer exists?
asking the right question is pertinent.
wat kind of leader do we want to have? vs who has God raised up and given the mantle of leadership to?

be careful who you deem to be proud. it tells more of the pride in your heart than that of the other person's.
check your heart.
Guard ur heart above all else for it is the wellspring of life. prov 4:23
Lord grant us Your eyes that we may no longer consider anyone from an earthly perspective. 2 cor 5:16
grant us discernment, that Your shepherds will know their flock and how to care for them well. grant your sheep obedience and humility to follow the path You have set before them.

Sunday, March 16, 2008



Amazing grace (my chains are gone) by Chris Tomlin
i m finding out how true this is.
"my chains r gone, i ve been set free"
the old is gone, the new has come 2 cor 5:17

Saturday, March 15, 2008

XL n CC got married today! yeah!!! was so happy... n of course so very tired!




i want to do all things at once, and do nothing at all.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

this morn, my counter was at 11,222. beautiful number! its kinda special 2 me... d number dat is.

http://downloads.creationontheweb.com/emailnewsletters/67_BeingBlessed_Mar08_INT.html
here's a website that should check out. pass on the info. we should financially and prayer support such documentaries!

something TK said today dat stuck: "i cant let God down cos i am not holding Him up."

i'm free... it's amazing how i've finally come into a deeper sense of freedom. since last thurs. deceived no more.

watched Evan Almighty 2nd time (half the time somewhere else) with sis n mum last night.from the movie:
God says:
"Whatever i do, i do because i love you"
when He gave the mammoth task of building an ark to Evan Baxter, a task sure to get him ridiculed n perhaps out of job. it seems so difficult n almost cruel a joke when the purpose/reason for God's request was still unknown. it's only after the "flood" (breaching of a dam) that God's love and salvation is shown. and also, a wondrous answer to Evan's prayer and goal to "change the world" by calling him to such a task.

God says:
"you build it, i fill it"
what is God's job, what's ur job. He ll do His job. will u?

"sounds like an opportunity"

"Act of Random Kindness" (A.R.K)

Monday, March 10, 2008

cant believe it's been a week already!

sales persons say the darnest things! i was trying to get a dress for XL's wedding. took me 3 days shopping to find the right one!
here's wat they said to me:
"you can get your daughter to look after your bag while u change in here." (...!)
" you so big size it's hard to get the right kind of dress." (when i am actually paying up for the $116 purchase! i cant believe i still signed on it.)
sigh...

m'sia politics! sigh.. makes it me thankful for how our ex-PMs r still on so good terms with the current one. makes me marvel n respect them all the more for stepping down gracefully n pitching in instead of tearing down. doesnt Mr M think that by slamming his successor, he is also inevitably slamming himself? he chose him for goodness sake... speaks of such good taste n foresight eh? n wat good is it to throw mud at someone already in the pits? doesnt show much of good character. n moreover, if the country's wellbeing is his concern, wouldnt trying to stabilise it after such polling shock (drop in shares r forecast. economy suffers) be a better move? makes u wonder if he is suffering from PM-withdrawal syndrome n trying to prove he is a better PM than his successor. seriously, M'sia is doing "not good" already. wat on earth is he trying to do? foolish. i m really pissed. n i dun even know y i care so much for Msia's politics! time for a malaysian malaysia pls... the country belongs to the chinese n indians too. i should shut up already.

Monday, March 03, 2008

11 099 on the counter.
nice number.

i thoroughly enjoyed yesterday's sermon
from 1 Sam 7:3-12
a call to clean up (v3)
"if you are returning to the Lord with all your hearts,
a call to look up
a call to set up (v12)
"then Samuel took a tone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, 'thus far has the Lord helped us.' "

a wake up call to
reckon & re-examine
restore & rebuild
respond & return

this is juz the sermon outline. i ve scribbled so much more personal notes on the outline sheet. God's been so good. felt so refreshed from the word.
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finally fulfilled my date. watched Leap years with en n lyd n yq. thoroughly enjoyed the movie. really enjoyed the lit.

the depth of longing was well brought out. the 4 gals well represented star-crossed love scenarios - a divorcee, a les, a mistress turned good, n a pining lover. spore's music, landscape, ethnic diversity n even food culture were even showcased! i love the soundtrack. a bonus was corinne may's familiar tunes. wat was unexpected was the humour in the lines! had the audience laughing n crying like some on-off switch!

now the slamming. haha n i really do LLLOOOOVVVEEE the movie! the guy could ve pursued the gal harder than he did la. i was a little concerned abt the message sent out really young pp out there abt going all out. esp one line dat goes "we dont need anyone's approval to love someone. why bother wat other pp think?" (said by the les!) well, like it or not, we cant live as if there is no God. there r consequences.
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the other romance film was P.S. I love you. n yes i loved it loved it too! well, thankfully i didnt read the novel first. SE who s read it complained. but me? i was totally satisfied with all the crying i did. i wonder if i d read the book.. think i d pass. shall keep the movie good in my mind.
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turns out this is the subsitute for the missing valentine s day blog afterall! haha.
home is not a place. home is a person.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

2 Hs represent v much of how i felt for the past few months - harassed and helpless.
haha.. i blogged abt this sometime ago abt sharing on dat passage. but oh well, related or not, some pressing, repeated smses yesterday made me realise i've been feeling v harassed n hence helpless. and K helped me work thru some of those which insightful questions.

r these goals what i want? is this where i want to be going? m i motivated to obtain this goal?
is this something i m convicted to do? something God is telling me to do it? if yes, n if i m not ready, what needs to happen 1st ?
if i've got enough ___________ would i b able to do it? (if i think there is something that i lack)

i'm not helpless. i need not react. i can act.i have options. more importantly, i can say "no"... which evidently didnt really make it into my dictionary or vocab.
my overblown sense of obligation can be thrown to the wind!

realised i really should take the Sabbath year thingy seriously. shall use my leave, n take no pay leave if i need. which i do. desperately.
pls dont ask me to take care of my body, that i need to rest. do u really think i m not trying to do that?! that i have this secret death wish to burn out?! (pls keep your yes-es to yourself! i might bite.)

another realisation today: to me, it is luxury to be able to have a workless meal. i would love to eat by myself, not at some meeting table/ study bench.
today, as like many others, i rushed from staff meeting to an evaluation, closure meeting that included lunch. it lasted the whole afternoon. then when it ended at 515, i went over to another part of the "sprawling" campus to have another "fellowship" that catered dinner. that event lasted till 930. so yeah,i actually have 12 hour days with really NO free time inbetween. n if u think the meals were free, rest assured that my double-digit bank account shows that the most of these times the meals cost more than if i would dine on my own lunch breaks.

oh, cheers to Spore for winning the bid to host the 1st ever Youth Olympics in 2010. and yes NUS will be the the lodging place. wow. i dun noe if i wanna b ard then. but i guess it'll be fun. but... in 2010.... it'll be a stretch to call me a "youth".

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the way of trust is a movement into obscurity, into the undefined, into ambiguity, not into predestined, clearly delineated plan of the future... all these challenges require a willingness to risk a journey into the unknown and a readiness to trust God even in darkness. - Brennan Manning

love, generally, is that principle which leads one moral being to desire and delight in anther, and reaches its highest form in that personal fellowship in which each lives in the life of the other, and finds his joy in imparting himself to the other, and in receiving back the outflow of that other's affection into himself.
James Orr (Hastings Dictionary of the Bible, III, 153)