Thursday, December 10, 2009

today is too good not to post.
started out bad. very busy, lots of things to do, get done. get the keys to our apartment for one. get cheque from KV another. i forgot and drop a few balls. did a few bad mistakes. and by the time i was supposed to lead small group, i felt like just crying. which i did. and it all worked out for so so good!

1) em reminded me that i had asked/wanted more challenge. it made me feel better cos then i realised God brought today in answer to that prayer.

2) in response to me saying i m so not ready to lead, em reminded me that i m a leader. i m always ready to lead. and jules told me that i m a leader so i m ready to lead in season and out of season and this may be out of season for me. they were calling forth and drawing out things in me. really thank God for that cos i was able to ride on that and rise up.

i had been looking forward to leading small group. and i had such vision and plans. i wanted God to show up. I desired that we had more indepth sharing and more vulnerability on the things God is doing in our lives. and more ministering to one another. and God really did answer all my desires! it was amazing.

i began by being more vulnerable that i ever been with them and they prayed for me. and then i prayed for the session and pulled heaven. they cried and then we laughed. shared and prayed and prophesied. it was amazing.

thank You Jesus! i m so in awe of what God is doing in our lives. He is amazing.

Kimb is v sensitive to my pulling on heaven. in the car she was getting high just cos i was praying silently beside her. she said she could feel the open heaven over me.

thank You HS!

and me being so "high" helped me. i really need to be filled by HS. i cant be the right evan without it.
thank God for ironing out things with Jo. and for breaking down the walls, restoring and healing.

and so Lord, we thank You for the work You are doing in each of our lives. thank You for the victories. we seal the victories in Your name and say more Lord. more of You!

Monday, December 07, 2009

I Do Not Love Thee
by Caroline Elizabeth Sarah Norton

I do not love thee!—no! I do not love thee!
And yet when thou art absent I am sad;
And envy even the bright blue sky above thee,
Whose quiet stars may see thee and be glad.

I do not love thee!—yet, I know not why,
Whate’er thou dost seems still well done, to me:
And often in my solitude I sigh
That those I do love are not more like thee!

I do not love thee!—yet, when thou art gone,
I hate the sound (though those who speak be dear)
Which breaks the lingering echo of the tone
Thy voice of music leaves upon my ear.

I do not love thee!—yet thy speaking eyes,
With their deep, bright, and most expressive blue,
Between me and the midnight heaven arise,
Oftener than any eyes I ever knew.

I know I do not love thee! yet, alas!
Others will scarcely trust my candid heart;
And oft I catch them smiling as they pass,
Because they see me gazing where thou art.
it's 7.28pm 6th dec now. ( i didnt change the settings. so the blog reflects GMT+8.00 time)
it's currently 3 degrees C. and snow is forecasted for tomorrow. i m not too thrilled abt that now tho. haha. funny huh? i think i wonder how messy and how difficult to do stuff, get to places. oh well. i'll update u again about that.
right now i m not too thrilled about how cold and windy it has been for the past few days. i was amused when coming back to our room, my specs fogged up. back in spore, specs fog up when we go outdoors, here, it's when we get indoors! LOL

Friday, December 04, 2009

m slogging away trying to do the 3 john inductive bible study homework. it's been 3 hours plus. i m beat. 
played debbie gibson's vids on youtube. and found this wonderful song i've never (or dont remember) hearing! DEBBIE GIBSON - FOR BETTER OR WORSE


hmmm... if i ever get married... which i dont have plans to... this will make it to the playlist!
along with... let's see...
- at the beginning by richard marx and donna lewis
- cant help falling in love 
hmm.. both fr disney movies...!
ok... that's all for now... i really need to get back to my homework!!!!!!
it's harder than i had thought! 
prayer Jack Taylor (who came to speak to our class yesterday) shared with us:
"Lord i want You to come upon my ming and change it on every issue where you and i don't see eye-to-eye. please renew my mind until you and i are thinking together."

if it is a FACT of Scripture, i must BELIEVE it.
if it is a REVELATION, i must RECEIVE it. 
if it is an EVENT, i must EXPERIENCE it.
if it is a RELATIONSHIP, it must be CONTINUED. 

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

adapted from Grasping God's Word (Duvall & Hays):

automatic transportation of the biblical text into our cultural world is called "interpretational reflex." Interpretational reflex "helps" us fill in all the gaps and ambiguities in the biblical texts with explanations and background from our culture. 
however, our cultural background has pre-formed parameters of limiting possibilities for a text even before we grapple with the intended meaning. we therefore subconsciously create a world of interpretive possibilities and IMpossibilities. however, by doing this, we are placing our culture above the Bible and are reading the Bible through culture-coloured lenses. the challenge is to critique our culture with the Bible and not vice versa. 


hence alot of times, when we read a command/promise from the Bible, we may superficially agree but in the back of our minds we write it off. we have allowed what the world, and/or our culture say is impossible to dictate our possibilities instead of really taking God at His word - "with man it is impossible, but with God, it is possible."

it's time to really believe what we say we believe.