Happy Birthday Mummy!

yeah yeah!!!!

Happy Birthday to you....!!

Her children arise and call her blessed - Prov 31:28

I love you Mummy!

walked from fullerton to bedok interchange in 2 n a half hours. kinda nice. love walking.

was surprised so soon cos it took me 95 min walking from church home!

will u walk wif me?

when you open your heart and welcome someone into your life, somehow, you are changed by that very presence in your life. you give a piece of your heart to those you open your life to and you can hardly stay the same. and somehow you choose to believe you are all the better because of it.


CA, it was bad. i wanted u to leave. but really i do love you and still do. i'm sorry for the lost and sadness i see in your eyes. and i m deeply saddened too. but i believe it is for your growth and betterment that you go. do know dat i m praying for you - dat God'll show you His ways and His answers to your questions; this whole episode'll soon make sense. i wish u well. GOODBYE.




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flashback.
L: i want us to be status quo.
[in this world, the only constant is change]

rewind. play.
L(tears streaming): how can you be so rational?!
[wat was really said - how can u be so heartless?!]

rewind. play.
L(teary): hot. must be the chilli.
[it wasn't. it was stupid of me then to believe u.]

flashback:
L: you are ashamed of me!
M: i'm not!
[yes u r]

flashback.
Clarke Quay. Night. clear weather. MAGIC.
i have everything i want in the world.

flashback.
jail cell.
M: can i give you a kiss?

flashback.
walking hand in hand. M eyes closed.
L(singing): close your eyes... gimme ur hand, darling... do you feel my heart beating... do you understand... do you feel the same... am i only dreaming...

flashback.
L(smiling, right hand extended): hi my name is ...

GOODBYE.

Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved. - Barbara Johnson

poem

I’d rather see a sermon
than hear one any day,
I’d rather one should walk with me
than merely show the way.
The eye’s a better pupil and
more willing than the ear;
Fine counsel is confusing,
but example’s always clear;
And the best of all the preachers are the men
who live their creeds,
For to see the good in action is what
everybody needs.
I can soon learn how to do it
if you’ll let me see it done.
I can watch your hand in action
but your tongue too fast may run.
And the lectures you deliver
may be very wise and true;
But I’d rather get my lesson
by observing what you do.
For I may misunderstand you
and the high advice you give,
But there’s no misunderstanding
how you act and how you live.

- Edgar A. Guest

sleepless in singapore

i have retaken the title yet again!!! yes i win hands down! i blogged juz now saying 3 weeks... went home n checked my calendar... nope... it's been slightly more than a month!!!!

man... i can go on n on... how long more b4 i drop?

sigh... sleep has been avoiding me... wat did i do to chase it away? Zhou Gong... come back! i wanna play chess with you! (those not acquainted with Chinese folk lore... check the net... too tired to explain)

stress stress!

my colleagues scared me today by saying that i look ghastly (pale, blood shot eyes etc...) n sick n should go home n sleep. in fact i was seeing stars after lunch. really blurred kaleidoscopic stuff...! n it was prolonged. kinda freaky...

anyway, have been to busy n stressed out. wanted to blog but really couldn't get round to doing it. sleep is a rarity now tho i m dead tired. 3 weeks of not meeting Zhou Gong!

stress lah... this is the longest ever i skipped blogging... shan't do it again. sorry 4 e blog neglect.

man... this is supposed to b the best 2 weeks of d year for me... SUPPOSED
mom's birthday coming... wat shall i gif her?? broke as broke can b!
after this month's mad rush, it's the traditional play time early nov... but i guess i may be so tired i might juz sleep thru the precious week (n the rare 2 pub hols of the week!!!!!) SHUDDER!!!!

i love my gals!

reading my gals' blogs is an uplifting experience! i'm so thankful to God for the privilege of having DG wif them. this is an honour and job i dun take lightly.

gals, thanks for opening ur hearts and sharing your life wif me. I'm so thankful to God for you. Your faith and love for Him encourages me so much!

Love y'all!


oops! time to go home!

I.N.A.H

it's one of those terrible days....!!!! arrrrgggghhh!!!!

I Need A Hug

my verse of the week

my prayer fr Prov 4:11, 12

Lord, guide me in the way of wisdom and lead me along straight paths. when i walk, let not my steps be hampered, when i run, let me not stumble. amen

i miss running

I have been put ‘out of action’ (still lots of phlegm still. Everything’s clogged. Somebody call the plumber!) i'm not fanatic enuf 2 run when i'm sick but 10 days later, I wanna run. frens cautioned me against running when i'm not fully recovered.

i miss running! frankly, I never thought I would..! I never thought I like running enough to miss not running. In fact, I never thought I would even like running EVER…!

it’s not about competing with others in a race. It’s about you. Not others, not time, not anything but you -

it’s about facing your weakness, and saying “no” to your own excuses… It’s about pushing your limits and seeing how far you can go… it’s about breaking barriers be it psychological or physical. it’s about facing your own demons. it’s about discipline. it's about overcoming you. It’s about knowing when to push and when to stop. It’s about setting your course and finding your pace. It’s about the journey, the sweat, the movement…

I wanna run.

I like the ad which carries the tagline – You are faster than you think. Now… which Label’s ad is dat?

I like the ad concept in “What Women Want” on women running - it’s just you and the road.

Well, I do enjoy other sports – cycling, blading, swimming, kayaking, team sports, blah blah… but when it comes to running, it’s just me and the road… no frills, no fuss…

i will run

wat i have learnt

yesterday finally succumbed to a trip to the Doc... i was kinda frustrated that it was taking this long for me to recover. besides not being able to get down to work, what i was frustrated at was not being able to think clearly n learn.

on my way back home from the clinic, i was mulling over my futile attempts to understand Soren Kierkegaard's Fear & Trembling. that philosopher's writings require my presence of mind to grasp his extensive and 'imaginative' arguments.

that's when i realised! i was more keen about learning about God and enmassing more knowledge about Him, the Bible, n Christian stuff than i am about knowing God. and this time of illness hampered my 'pursuit of knowledge of God', making me frustrated n feeling unproductive. i realised then the drastic difference n need for a pursuit of God, not the knowledge of Him...

this time of illness, was a time for me to have my 'perfect day'... n it's such a gr8 time to juz hang with God. it was kinda difficult for me cos i realised that in my work and all, i became very 'transactional' with Him. i go to Him with an agenda (nothing against agendas!)... in prayer for this this this... (ploughing thru my long list of requests n petitions). when reading the word is for getting sharing pointers to use in my teaching or sharing somewhere etc... BAD!!!!

well, it's not that i no longer wait to listen from Him... juz that i REALLY forgot the simple joy of "doing nothing with God" and enjoy His presence. (usually i m busy working)

so ironically... the perfect day was really kinda perfect! inbetween me gettting K.O by the meds, i eat(yah...), juz talk n think abt.. not getting things from Him, but Him... not about finding direction and guidance for this issue or that problem... but HIM

wat a reminder to seek His face n not seek from His hand (blessings, guidance etc)...wat a call to back "being" instead of "doing"...

don't wait till u r sick 2 do dat w God k?

yesterday's QUESTION OF THE DAY

yesterday i had aburning question... here's it n the answer...

how do you differentiate btw a viral and a bacterial infection?

virual infection is self-limiting...
time is e factor... if it is prolonged, not responding to symptomatic treatment... need anti-biotics.
antibiotics does not work for virual infection...

there's more... cant rem now... will add later...
hey docs... pls add....

haha!! i learnt this over n over again! i realised i asked this qn last year n the year b4... man...! no wonder i'm still stuck in Med fac!!

how do crows mourn?

right now outside my window the crows r going berserk crowing their lungs out. i was irritated and wanted somehow to stop them from continuing their racket. it s giving me such a bad headache. when i looked out, i saw a cat mauling a crow on the ground. man! if they were previously trying to warn their 'friend', they were 'screaming' at that tom cat now...

my irritation turned into sympathy. the cat's gone now... the crow's remains r on the grass below... the crows continue their din... i covered the window without shoo-ing at the crows perched just a few meters away. got no heart to ask them to shut up.

perfect day....?!

it came to mind that some time back, i was telling God how i wish i could spend one whole day at home. i had been busy that my off day for the past weeks were spent in NUS! no, i dun really mind or blame any1... juz dat i was really looking forward 2 a day juz being at home...

somehow somewhere along the past 4 weeks, my idea of "what a perfect day to me is" has become "a day at home doing what i need n like to do at home" (which does not include sleeping tho - i dun really like to sleep!)

well GOT IT... yesterday... skipped church, stayed home but cant do much... cos fever n all... tot it not nice to share my bug w sunday sch kids who r celebrating children's day. wat a pressent dat would b huh? sigh... missed children's day!!!! sigh...

today...?? sama sama.. planned to go into my office today but i d better not... diana told me last night a patient is called a patient cos she needs 2 b patient... er duh... shan't argue w u... my brain's concussed anyway... remember my bamboo-stick-hit-on-the-head? yah.. i'm going w dat excuse 4 now... btw, woo-hoo way-to-go 4 Yappie!! he scored big time last night! n i helped him on his second goal!!!! haha... diana, u gotta gif me credit 4 my perfect timing...! (btw, u din gif him my blog add did u? if u did... i bet u r regretting dis very minute!!! haha!)

n YT, keep up dat indian accent! gal u r hilarious! too bad i really wasnt up to sparring w u last night... 10x 4 downloading ur crap. really. i really sounded bad huh? should hear me today...

anyway, today promises 2 b yet another perfect day... a day to spend it all at home... i shall try my best to enjoy it in the Lord. should be gr8 once i get used to the continual nose blowing, hard sneezing, n grogginess. reminds me of the movie "one perfect day"... the terribly-not-perfect-day can turn out to b a really perfect one. hmmm... my fever better stay down!

weekend weekend!

enjoyed myself w my GLs today... i love medical students....! (n Dental!!!!) haha... rather high today... manic....!>>>>>

was trying to eat my breakfast today n in the middle of it... kena hit by bamboo stick!! hahaha! right smack on my head! there was a second of silence (or two) and i broke out laughing... i thot it was kinda hilarious wat... like some coconut drop on head feeling. my poor mom thot i cried. she was so sim tia (heart pain)...!

m sick sick sick... or going to.... my throat hurts, nose runs... feverish.... sigh... ah Li... u spread ur germs to me!!! nvm... will rest.... was actually looking forward to a long run this weekend... now probably will go to bed after church tmr. VIT C... i'm counting on u! pls save me...

complimentary tics to the museum for the Vatican Collection... went there already 4 the curator's talk... they compensate me cos it was too crowded... now go again lor... going later... yeah yeah.
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2 hours later... (5pm)
CMI CMI (cannot make it)!!!!!! sigh... classic case of too little too late (of vit c)... i...feel....terrible.... nid 2 go home rest... ran outta tissue liao... finished 2 pkts... cant go museum. i insist no panadol... tho... "i got a fever i'm hot i cant b stopped.... i got a......fever!" (Arts fac cheer) c... shao huai brain liao