my one week thanksgiving break just flew by so fast!

mon was spent at emily's place. was somewhat a treat retreat for me. it was SO therapeutic to sit on a couch that is clean and the environment quiet. i miss a "house" place. staying at simpson's one side of a room just makes me feel "argh".

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tues thanksgiving session with Bill. "dont believe anything they write about you. in fact, dont even read it." i think that is something i put a note for self to. if it is good, and you believe, you may get proud. i'd rather have God's report cos that'll never puff me up. if it is bad, then i really dont need critics to pull me down. then it's impartation.

chatted with Julia from 5-10! shared God-given vision n prophesied.

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wed - apartment viewing and met joanne chun for dinner. went to jade garden. wonderful authentic vietnamese food! felt so blessed by the fellowship. she prayed and prophesied over us in the parking lot. puzzled the restaurant owners.

thurs was thanksgiving. my 1st ever thanksgiving. 

and who would've guessed buying a car could get me (us) a thanksgiving meal: turkey, all the yummy dishes and pies. and wonderful fellowship with a wonderful family - the Pearsons, Todds, Robinsons. we went one round the table saying what we were thankful to God for. their faith was evident in their sharing. they shared not just food with us, not just family time, but their lives - who they are, their journey, their struggles. these are saints. my older brothers and sisters in Christ who have such a heart for God and men. i love being in their company. took a walk to digest the sumptuous food before the dessert. last Christmas Wes had a heart attack just before dessert. diana was thankful he survived and is still around with her. i was thankful of that too. that i had the privilege to enjoy his unassuming disposition and humour. at 76, he amazes me. and there's joan too. tho almost blind, she does not let it hinder her nor get her spirits down. u wouldnt have guessed she couldnt see by her confident strides as she took us on the McConnell trails. and what a love she has for young people! and Pam... all 3 remarkable ladies with their spouses. Lord bless them with health for the rest of their lives. 

then it was off to Nicola's. was treated to another round of great food and fellowship with Emma n her. 

what i m thankful for? the privilege to come to Bethel. it's been nothing less than a miracle, and it's been really incredible (forgive my limited vocabulary!) to sit at the feet of such anointed fathers of faith and to receive impartation. i m thankful for a supportive family (biological), and a supportive spiritual family (ASE and Bethel). i m thankful for my co-journer, my covenantal friend whom God has used to love, challenge, mold me. 

i really have so much to thank You for Lord. all the little and big blessings that came my way. thank You for You, Father, Saviour, Friend. 

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black friday. the best and craziest sale ever! we went Walmart, Target, KMart and Sears. got microwave @$18, vacuum cleaner @$9, crockpot @$3, 32pc dinnerware @$18, 16pc cookware @25.... but all these spoils were gotten at 4-7am! 

we prayed that we would get all the things we need. well, we got them! thank You, Jesus! 

watched "UP" cried buckets.

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sat was homework, gym. swam. watched "Hulk". Jo cooked lunch and dinner.

read "Love has a face" by Michele Perry. it's about her doing ministry in war-torn Sudan. 

amazing book. praise God!

3 steps to ministry success in Iris Ministry (Sudan), p73:

step 1: every morning wake up.

step 2: Ask Jesus what He is doing that day - not what He wants you to do, but what He is already doing.

step 3: Go join Him. 

Holy desperation became the context for holy demonstration. Dignified has never changed the world. Desperate has. (p 65)

Jesus let me love with Your love and see with Your eyes. show me what it means to be the expression of Your heart to those around me.... love did have a face: mine. (p55)

this love does not start with a good program. it cannot. it starts with being in love, being intimately connected to Jesus. it starts with knowing first that i am loved. i cannot give what i do not have. it is supernatural. it cannot be apart from Him. All living fruit in my life has come only from a living relationship with Him. (p52)

pray with me this prayer adapted from what Perry wrote at the end of the book:

"i ask right now, Holy Spirit, that You wash over me and fill me with Your perfect love. give me child-eyes to see the invitation of the unpaved road draw me deeper into Your heart, that i may live all of life from the place of knowing how loved i m. Papa, wrap Your arms around me. let me hear the songs You sing over me in the night. Let them know the place i have in Your house. Let me now that You love me.

i ask You, Papa, to stir hunger in me and call forth the dreams You have placed in my heart that i have not even dared to embrace. Take me lower in humility, deeper in intimacy and higher in revelation. i ask that you submerge me in Your fiery presence until they are see-through in love and carry Your glory wherever i go. 

i ask You for a movement of love to begin one life at a time that will literally change nations from the inside out. teach me how to dance in the storm, and let me live a life of love without limit. Amen." 

my car came back fr the car spa (repair shop). looking shiny n new from the behind. haha. nice butt! 

it's thanksgiving break. school's out for a week. will take this time to do the needed reflection and impending homework deadlines. i'm learning so much that i feel i m gorging myself at the buffet table. Holy Spirit, help me digest what You have showed me. 

will b going over the Emily's for some sort of retreat. retreat for the space-starved me. 

vampires, twilight, new moon series and the christian response

http://www.cbn.com/entertainment/screen/goodwyn-vampires-twilight-obsession.aspx

it's 5 degrees now. 

yesterday God showed me i needed to get my priorities right: to BE not be distracted by the DO.

i love my outreach. this was my last pastor-on-call duty. totally enjoyed it. but i m also looking forward to going out next week for outreach. 

on our way home, our outreach group mate  rear-ended my car which was stationery. my neck kinda hurt from the whiplash and i was kinda in shock for sometime. thankfully joanne was totally fine and she directed me to park at the side of the road when i was still seh from the impact and she got down and liaised with the guy. 

our car was fine, when i (finally) got out to examine it, i hardly believed i was rammed into cos besides the scrunched up license plate, everything looked fine. but my friend's car looked bad. his bonnet cant even open. 

got my 1st job offer since i got into BSSM yesterday... hmm... so God gave me some reassurance... =)

pp r getting healed, saved, delivered daily. miracles abound. deaf hear... cancer patients, given 2 weeks to live get completely healed. pp with one leg shorter than the other saw that leg grow out to the same length right before their eyes...

our God is a powerful God and He shows it! 

JUST came back from watching "THIS IS IT". man... i was enjoying it so much. Michael Jackson is really something. God really made him so so creative. at times he talks about the music arrangement as if he is cooking something - "let it simmer...", "take all the nourishment.." haha.

he is amazing. and it's nice to see him move into more jazz... i like the way he did "the way you make me feel." n i LOVE the vids and special effects for the opening, "they dont really care about us", "earth song", "thriller". but "Smooth criminal" takes the cake!

if you are gonna watch the movie, stay right till the end cos they have a short clip at the end. 

this is one movie i would want to get its dvd. 

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thank you all of you for sending your birthday greetings! THANK YOU!!!

thank to those who 

made me something: pps (teenster!!!!!!), card...

gave me something: thru amazon (YT thanks!!!!), thru my bathroom door... haha (my dear suite-mates), heather for the apple pie.....

sang me happy birthday umpteen times...

will give me prophetic blessing and words of knowledge tonight (cya at 8 in the commons)

i have been looking forward to this birthday for a long time... cos it's the BIG 3-0. and i think it is very significant. a whole new chapter. a whole new ERA.... i love my twenties.. n each year was better than the next... so i really look forward to my thirties. something tells me it will be a blast. i cant wait to live out my days with the Lord. it's amazing to spend my life with Him (well, of course He gave me this life). 

what i did on 3rd november.... well, my birthday thingy kinda started when it's 3rd nov in spore.... the well wishes came pouring in. n it was only afternoon on 2nd over here. so i kinda started feeling it was my birthday since the 2nd. and i m still celebrating today. open some presents then went to the Prayer house to soak after midnight... went to Rivers restaurant for lunch cos it overlooks the river to the mountains... if dinner then cant see anything... sun sets at 5 now. spent the whole afternoon out on the patio eating and taking pictures, reading the bible, journalling. God gave me amazing weather - sunny ard 20 degrees. so it's not hot and not cold so i could comfortably wear a skirt and a thin nylon blouse like i do in spore. then despite a huge row i had, i ended 3rd nov back in the prayer house soaking. was so good i could go on all night but decided to come back to honour the dorm curfew. 

i hope no one sms-ed me on my spore number cos it's been suspended since i m over here. so FB or email me. u could call...but then.. watch the time hor... hee hee....

God bless you all. thank you for being sharing your life with me. it's a privilege to share mine with you. 

today Daylight savings end. dont ask me what it means. all i know is that the clocks get turn back 1 hour. i forgot about that so i was puzzled when i saw the 1st service guys walking out to their car a 9.15am. i was like.... "arent they late?" no they're not. i'm early!

so... we are now 16 hours behind singapore time. hmmm... it means i get to sleep in later! haha.