came back on fri late aft, DEAD TIRED. went home. put lugguage, wash up. power napped 20 min then hastily went out to host Americans. was very very tired but felt kinda bad if i dun "jin di zhu zhi yi". brought them to Lau Pat Sat, then Night Safari. was too late so didn't bring them for durians. was fun being with them. no regrets... except dat the weekend was a dragging of my body and pushing myself for events aft events. sat am at punggol sec, power napped 20 min than rushed out for worship pract. was rather unprepared n really didn't know how i wanted the songs 2 b played.
yearning for bed whole of fri n sat. planned to sleep at 930 on sat so can b fresh to lead worship. but somehow felt prompted to turn on hp at 10+. got a voicemail. was a rather urgent/desperate sounding one. returned call. talked till 12+. told God He gotta help since He got me picking up this call. He did. woke up on sun still dark n felt fresh n ready.
was blessed to finally have a drummer so tried the tough, "beaty" hillsongs. n abi wanted me to teach "Still". agreed cos it fit into my theme n felt God wanted to minister thru dat song even tho i wasn't familiar wif it. abi had to teach me. n it did turn out dat so many people were bawling while we sang "Still". i was kinda blown away myself juz seeing how powerful it was. wanted to follow up on "with all i m" after teaching it in January so turned out sun worship was very "hillsongy". have nothing against them but i m not particularly very "hillsongy".
n was kinda feeling anxious cos the songs were not easy... n i kept going off key during sat n sun pract! but God showed up at service. i did fine. i really had to hand it to Him. i really have stage fright re singing. emcee-ing, acting, dancing, preaching, no prob. but i freeze up badly when singing. i always freak. n was really wondering why on earth i subject my nerves to such torture.
hiaz. God calls n works in weird ways. He chose to call n use me in worship. i juz gotta obey. i always tot i'd ve 2 minister in my weakness but it turned out to b an area of gifting. if u hear me during pract u'll freak too. but it seems i sing ok during the real thing! n i look confident n all. tho really freaking out inside. so, i'm discovering gifts this feb - hospitality n worship. hmmm... juz keeping my fingers crossed dat the freaking out will eventually go away.
sunday was another full day with poiema then WL training. i was surprised i even lasted dis long. went home to power nap 30 min. then woke for dinner n do stuff.
so yay for power naps n power fr on high! PTL.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sunday, February 19, 2006
will b away at batam this week. pray for me, pray for us ok? i'm kinda tired.
Please pray for me as I am in-charge of and emceeing the opening programme, games n recreation, teaching all the ladies a dance and a response prayer time.
116 staff ladies from S’pore, Japan, China, S. Korea will be attending. Pray for us to meet up with God individually as well as corporately.Pray for grace and favour, alertness in mind and for the ladies to enjoy, bond with one another and be ministered to.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Just let me say how much i love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
and the earth will shake as Your word goes forth
and the heavens will tremble and fall
just let me say how much i love You
O my Saviour, my Lord and Friend
Just let me hear Your finest whisper
as You gently call my name
Just let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
till this sand is Your holy ground
till i m found completely surrendered
to You, my Lord and Friend
Just let me say how much i love You
with all my heart i long for You
for i am caught in this passion of knowing
this endless love i found in You
and the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
to be called a child of God
just makes me say how much i love You
O my Saviour, my Lord and Friend
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in the shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
and the earth will shake as Your word goes forth
and the heavens will tremble and fall
just let me say how much i love You
O my Saviour, my Lord and Friend
Just let me hear Your finest whisper
as You gently call my name
Just let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your Spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
till this sand is Your holy ground
till i m found completely surrendered
to You, my Lord and Friend
Just let me say how much i love You
with all my heart i long for You
for i am caught in this passion of knowing
this endless love i found in You
and the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
to be called a child of God
just makes me say how much i love You
O my Saviour, my Lord and Friend
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
valentine challenge
termed by Christelle for this thingy dat God spoke to me abt years back...
was d day after Vday. was so "walking in the clouds", head over heels, dreamy as can b after VD. juz thinking abt my valentine (note small v) brought a grin to my lips, a warm glow to my face, a sparkle to my eyes... my heart missed a beat juz thinking the face in my mind might come into view when i round the corner... when God asked me - how is it dat i don't desire Him as much? how is it that i don't yearn for the very next time i can turn my full attention to Him? why doesn't my heart leap at the th ought of Him? why is my mind never as occupied by thoughts of Him? God gently challenged me to rethink my love relationship with Him. I felt His tender, yet jealous heart for me.
n i shared to my M1 gals think 2 weeks back. told them to evaluate their relationship with the Lover of their soul and take time to renew their passion for the Him. Christelle said dat it's different- our relationship wif a person n wif God, but she got the gist of wat i was trying to say n told me she'll try my Valentine challenge.
well,i should take up this same "challenge" n spend time with the Lover of my soul... NOW. bye...
was d day after Vday. was so "walking in the clouds", head over heels, dreamy as can b after VD. juz thinking abt my valentine (note small v) brought a grin to my lips, a warm glow to my face, a sparkle to my eyes... my heart missed a beat juz thinking the face in my mind might come into view when i round the corner... when God asked me - how is it dat i don't desire Him as much? how is it that i don't yearn for the very next time i can turn my full attention to Him? why doesn't my heart leap at the th ought of Him? why is my mind never as occupied by thoughts of Him? God gently challenged me to rethink my love relationship with Him. I felt His tender, yet jealous heart for me.
n i shared to my M1 gals think 2 weeks back. told them to evaluate their relationship with the Lover of their soul and take time to renew their passion for the Him. Christelle said dat it's different- our relationship wif a person n wif God, but she got the gist of wat i was trying to say n told me she'll try my Valentine challenge.
well,i should take up this same "challenge" n spend time with the Lover of my soul... NOW. bye...
valentine poems
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach
~Sonnets from The Portuguese, Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Thou art my life, my love, my heart,
The every eyes of me,
And hast command of every part,
To live and die for thee
~From To Anthea who May Command Him Anything, Robert Herrick
Flesh of Flesh
Bone of my Bone thou art,
And from thy state
Mine never shall be parted,
Weal or woe
~From Paradise Lost, John Milton
Here is my hand, and with it let all hands be given, and be held in yours and mine.
~from Meeting With a Stranger, James Kirkup
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach
~Sonnets from The Portuguese, Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Thou art my life, my love, my heart,
The every eyes of me,
And hast command of every part,
To live and die for thee
~From To Anthea who May Command Him Anything, Robert Herrick
Flesh of Flesh
Bone of my Bone thou art,
And from thy state
Mine never shall be parted,
Weal or woe
~From Paradise Lost, John Milton
Here is my hand, and with it let all hands be given, and be held in yours and mine.
~from Meeting With a Stranger, James Kirkup
Monday, February 13, 2006
pink pink pink!!!
bought the hot pink motorola Razr V3 on sat... i m so happy wif the buy! i love flip phones, i love pink, i love motorola!! gonna carry it in d hot pink pouch! got pink Gola sneakers juz b4 chinese new year (juz $20 bucks! thanx Eunice!), started carrying my hot pink 'plastic' bag (they got a more 'atas' name for it... but since it's like so out of fashion, i cant rem wat it was called... again, thanks Eunice!! so sorry din start using it wen u gave me... sigh... i'm such an last-last-season person huh) haha...! i m so gonna "pink out" on sunday! hey poiema gals... join me lah... wear pink!!
n, now my blog's pink!! haha... actually it's not really my doing!! the blame, i mean, the credit goes to d wonderful May-ann who kindly helped me change my template after my stupid goof-up. d blog juz couldn't update my new entries since 4 feb... tho i was blogging still. i felt so 'constipated' esp since the past week has been so evan-ful! i mean... eventful...
juz a quick run thru "highlights". WAS not the 'lose things' kinda person until last sun (5 feb). since then, i lost 2 water bottles (those throw-away mineral bottles. but ya noe how much i drink a day... so dat was a little crisis...), n my Easi-link card (n along wif it my precious moments card case!!!) n i guess dat's wen i messed up my blog's html too... hiaz...
my mom oso told me she could c i was stressed. hope i can get stuff all done up by next week's women staff conf!
anyway, i'm putting myself on pink therapy for an indefinite period of time!! pink power! haha.
n, now my blog's pink!! haha... actually it's not really my doing!! the blame, i mean, the credit goes to d wonderful May-ann who kindly helped me change my template after my stupid goof-up. d blog juz couldn't update my new entries since 4 feb... tho i was blogging still. i felt so 'constipated' esp since the past week has been so evan-ful! i mean... eventful...
juz a quick run thru "highlights". WAS not the 'lose things' kinda person until last sun (5 feb). since then, i lost 2 water bottles (those throw-away mineral bottles. but ya noe how much i drink a day... so dat was a little crisis...), n my Easi-link card (n along wif it my precious moments card case!!!) n i guess dat's wen i messed up my blog's html too... hiaz...
my mom oso told me she could c i was stressed. hope i can get stuff all done up by next week's women staff conf!
anyway, i'm putting myself on pink therapy for an indefinite period of time!! pink power! haha.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
to be or not to be, that is the question...
to be a RSW or not to be?! it has been weighing on my heart n mind these past weeks. hiaz... i realise a huge part of the stress i m feeling is juz cos i m ding dong-ing between "yes, i'll go for it" n "no, i'll let it go". n the worse... it seems, i cant hear anything fr God. note: it seems. i think He spoke... but i m unmotivated to pursue to licence... hmm... aiyah.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Saturday, February 04, 2006
CPE
was so freaking out last night regarding CPE (Continuous Profession Education). my licence is expiring in mar 06! man.. how do i clock in my hours? i still need at least 80 hours... aka 80 CEUs (Continuous Education Units) by the end of Mar! ahhh....!!
not to mention the exhorbitant costs! i'll need at least 2k for courses to get 70 CEUs!
it is so tiring...! it's like juggling 2 jobs! it's so tough cos i m not in the practice. if i am working in a social service org, i would have the time, the allowance for it. but... as everything else, i have to raise this... n go for CPE on top of min.
why? why do i need to maintain my licence? well, for one, even obtaining it in the first place was God-arranged. i am not in the line... yet somehow, i qualified! graduates fr NUS since my time had to b in the practice for at least 3 months before they can start applying!! this itself is a miracle. n, esp last year, my licence came in so handy for the tsunami recovery efforts, for community min's strategy n LT plans... it made sense... but despite this, God i dun wanna work 2 keep dis licence 4 my own 'ambition'. really. the licence to me is not impt. i cant see y i need it. but if it is impt in my min, n U wan me to have it, U need to pull another miracle... it is impossible... i leave it in Your hands.
not to mention the exhorbitant costs! i'll need at least 2k for courses to get 70 CEUs!
it is so tiring...! it's like juggling 2 jobs! it's so tough cos i m not in the practice. if i am working in a social service org, i would have the time, the allowance for it. but... as everything else, i have to raise this... n go for CPE on top of min.
why? why do i need to maintain my licence? well, for one, even obtaining it in the first place was God-arranged. i am not in the line... yet somehow, i qualified! graduates fr NUS since my time had to b in the practice for at least 3 months before they can start applying!! this itself is a miracle. n, esp last year, my licence came in so handy for the tsunami recovery efforts, for community min's strategy n LT plans... it made sense... but despite this, God i dun wanna work 2 keep dis licence 4 my own 'ambition'. really. the licence to me is not impt. i cant see y i need it. but if it is impt in my min, n U wan me to have it, U need to pull another miracle... it is impossible... i leave it in Your hands.
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