yesterday was my off in lieu. i didnt realise how exhausted i was until i woke up at 5.30PM!! yesh! 5.30pm! i slept more than 15 hours! had planned to have a day of silence and solitude but God and my body conspired against me to have silence n inactivity of another kind. woke up feeling refreshed like i never felt in a long time.

i realised i ve carried around a huge load of guilt and disappointments generated from high standards for self, for ministry for everything. further meditation and reflection got me back to Heb 12:1-2, my freshmen camp's theme. "lay aside every weight..." so that can run properly ah...

need 2 better draw margins... say "NO" so that i can better say my "YES"

working 12 hour days again... need to pace. too crazy b4 sch start. cant imagine how when matric happens!

now, inbetween meetings. went 2 NTUC n did my grocery shopping cos these weeks i end after shop closes. so now i'm a cross between aunty and cosmopolitan white collar wage-earner in BK with bags of groceries beside me, typing furiously away on my macbook n shoving lunch into my mouth...

fix your eyes on Christ, the author and perfector of your faith..........

"Do you seek any further reward beyond that of having pleased God? In truth, you know not how great a good it is to please Him." by John Chrysostom (347-407 a.d.)

To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable, because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you." - C.S. Lewis

we've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
we've added years to life, not life to years.
we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.
we pane more, but accomplish less.
we've learned to rush, but not to wait.
these are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throw-away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies.
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
it is a time when there is much in the show window
and nothing in the stockroom.
- unknown

if the work you are doing obscures your sense of God, pause.
work not out of fear, worry, stress.
work out of faith, a sense of anticipation of what God will do.
fix your eyes on Jesus.
cant see Him? move to get a better view.