all i want for Christmas MV (again!)

my fav secular Christmas song. think this is at least the 3rd version i've put up here over the years. this one has 2 artistes that i have been praying hard for: Mariah Carey and Justin Bieber. they have such huge gifting and anointing fr God. i pray that they will experience Christ in a deeper way, way beyond intellectual knowledge. so that their lives and gifts will be unleashed truly in the way they are meant to be.

my goodness! i had merely wanted to remove a bug in my html n then accidentally changed my settings n the look of my blog! sigh... n i didnt back-up. so there's no turning back. bye bye to the pink and hi to the blue. that's for now until i m super free to change and write one on my own.
oh well... surprise!
merry christmas!

air safety demo christmas dance

this, i super like! hahaha... made me laugh!
some friends of mine are flying on this airlines. too bad i aint going on hol during Christmas cos it's super peak work period for me. otherwise i would fly with this airlines just for smiles. ;D

count your blessings.
dont focus on what you dont have or have lost.
cherish what you have now - the support, the love, the friends, the resources.
not grumble about what you have not.
or worse, live in the lament of your loss.
everyday has its own blessings. everyday is full of God's grace and mercies. everyday abounds with joy, hope and faith. if only your eyes are opened to them. only when your hands free from holding onto the past, are they able to pull these blessings close.

it's interesting how hard it can get - feels like waddling thru water, feels like breathing thickly polluted air... many times i caught myself wishing i was back in Bethel where the sky is clear and heaven is near, where the unseen is tangible and anything is possible, where it felt like being in a bubble, untouched and untouchable. then i had wanted out. then i had yearned for a battle, for a challenge to test my mettle.
now, out of breath and out of gas. it's barely been round one!
to be fair to myself i have had my victories since coming back: camps, speaking engagements, dreams, visitations, travels in the physical and spiritual, sozos, breaking off stuff etc. but really, it's barely round one!

i m getting used to "pastor". it's a bane and a boon at the same time. it is interesting how conversations have changed to a great extent. they have taken a problem-focused mode. whenever people talk to me, they see someone they can bring their problems to and find help, assurance, healing, faith, encouragement, edification - a pastoral concern needing pastoral ministry. the title has changed a normal friend, co-congregant into some sort of God's mini-superman. 

on the other hand, it bestows some sort of legitimacy and authority to the office to facilitate the call and the work. it really is humbling. it does facilitate building a kingdom culture, a culture of honour. 

i have learnt to receive honour and respond better to it. 

i have learnt self-control, learnt communication, learnt to love and pursue, learnt greater awareness.
i have learnt to say "no" so my "yes-es" can be better, stronger, more effective.
i have learnt that some things can be claimed and gotten here and now, others have to a process to be walked through. wisdom is in knowing which is which.
i have realised friends are gifts. i have had many, such that i had taken lots for granted. but i have learnt to take stock and hold dear, to fight for, not neglect.
i have learnt and resolved not to condescend but to lift the other up.
i will resolve to commit to the fight and know that it really isn't a fight in that it has already been won. thus a fight in rest. not a fight to rest. it's not a paradox; it is the true way and we have gotten it muddled up in the first place.
i resolve to live on supernatural hope and perspective.
i resolve to choose to love and bring up in faith.
i resolve to declare and live the truth for Truth lives in me.
i resolve to continually draw from my Home, my Source, my Strength, my Joy, my Love. (home is not a place as much as it is a Person.)
i resolve to not let ministry distract me from my Muse.