happy n so thankful. =)

thank You for everything, my friends. for what You are doing in my life.

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at Barnes & Nobles now. it's weird cos i keep feeling like i have a whole long day ahead but it's going to be dark soon.

cycled for the 1st time over here (in a long while). it literally took my breath away. it was sunny but deceptively cold! i almost freeze my fingers off! and got breathless just riding a short distance. the cold and biting winds just caught me off guard. i was surprised cos i used to journey high up in the mountains with very thing air n i m fine, riding a bike in and i feel breathless in 3 mins?! oh well. =) just thankful for bro who lent me his bike while he's gone. it's nice to ride again.

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i (Jesus) came to give life and life to the full. - John 10:10.

thank God for the fullness. it is amazing.

the fullness is not in the ridiculously hectic schedule and unfinishable work demanding all of us and throwing us off other more important priorities. but fullness in the purpose of God that you find fullness in being you. ahh.... thank You Jesus!

i'm thankful for Barnes and Noble for always being so warm! ahh... it's cold n wet. what a nice hideout haven!

i'm thankful for my car, my laptop, my guit.

for dinner, for friends, for my apartment, for smiles.

Thank You God for simple and complicated, small and big blessings in life.

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was rocked as i played "how great is our God" on guit tonight. saw myself before the throne of God singing directly to Him. i burst into tears. literally, Oh my God!

Oprah Winfrey's words on Barbara Walters Interview 2010.

– “I am seeking the fullness expression of myself as a human being on earth.”

– that’s what I say to God all the time “use me till you use me up.” That is what my prayer is.

i think this gayle and oprah tabloid thing is overblown. the world doesn't know what intimacy is. they equate intimacy to sex and have absolutely no grid for friendship or "without sexual relations". it's sad. it's time 2 take it back to what it is.

all i want for Christmas is you (NOTA)

NOTA - all i want for Christmas is you

new release on itunes. my fav version of this song to date!

i had wanted to post this earlier but i saved in my drafts instead. oh well.

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went to Julie's 4 Christmas Eve, Joy's 4 Christmas. (spent more than 10 hours at her place!)

had great fun.

will take this time to translate my dreams onto paper. it's alot tougher than i expected. God has shown me that these will happen sooner than i had thought, bigger too. so just the research for them is taking alot of time even!

2011 is going to be such an adventure. better than 2009 and this year. i mean... man, CRAZY, AWESOME stuff! thank You Jesus!

update from the last post:

in the end, i did get into some sort of a groove and stayed till closing or near closing i think. have been back in the lib many times since then.

and now too.

what's happening these weeks:

learning to steward hearts,

learning to see the details and enjoy the small lessons as i adjust to my spiritual growth spurt.

getting down to really work on what probably will be my life's work. detailed planning. but first research.

alots of thoughts and ideas so sort through and hear God and catch His vision on.

enjoying classical music in this season.

un-doing alot of perception filters

and of course alot of homework reading, personal research, KV cd tagging etc.

it's sat 3.28pm. im actually bored in the library! this is bad. it's 1 of my fav places 2b. hmmm... ill give it another shot for 30 min. if it doesnt work out, i know what will =)! hee hee... i'll go exercise or a walk around lema ranch. oh dear! the camera's with bro. hmmm... so lema ranch is out.

deb wisely pointed out (on FB) that maybe it's cos ive been spending too much time in the lib. which i think is really wise.

i actually have lots to do tho. but so not in the mood! sorry to those whose emails i havent replied to! sigh... i would love some face time instead of emailing! hmmm... skype?? hmmm... i dun have internet in my apt so that means i have to do it in public places where pp can hear my side of the conversation... which i dont like.

random thoughts:

it's interesting how questions and can open up things to you that you have never considered before.

sometimes the stuff left unanswered/unsaid speaks more than what was.

i m trying to learn how to operate in a new level of sobriety or lack of.

more randomness:

interesting hotels -

Hotel Kakslauttanen, Finland

The snow igloos here are cool (pun intended), but what really caught our eye were the futuristic glass igloos, which guarantee unrestricted views of the aurora borealis from the comfort of your zebra-striped bed; the phenomenon turns the night sky dazzling shades of green, red, and blue from late August to April. (The special thermal glass doesn't frost over—even if outdoor temperatures drop to minus 30 degrees Celsius.) Staff supply wool socks and down sleeping bags for guests who opt for one of the 12 "real" igloos, where the interior temperature hovers between 21 and 27 degrees Fahrenheit. If you get cold feet, the property also features more conventional accommodations like wood cabins.

011-358/1666-7100, kakslauttanen.fi, glass igloos from $468 for two people.

Jumbo Stay, Stockholm, Sweden

For most jet-setters, getting on a big jet plane and going nowhere might seem like a prank of transatlantic proportions. Then again, most people have never boarded Jumbo Stay at Stockholm's Arlanda Airport. The 450 seats on this retired Boeing 747 have been replaced by 27 rooms, all of which, we assure you, have plenty of legroom. To fly really high, book the cockpit-located suite, where you can move the controls and push as many buttons as you'd like without ever worrying about crashing.

011-46/8-593-604-00, jumbostay.com, doubles from $149.

Palacio de Sal, Bolivia

If you're one of those people who believe you can never have too much salt, then we've got the place for you. The luxurious Salt Palace, located on Bolivia's vast salt flats, is made entirely out of the mineral. From floor to ceiling, including the walls, beds, and chairs, it's all salt, all of the time. And the 16-room property offers dishes like salt-encrusted lamb, of course. Sufferers of high blood pressure should probably look elsewhere for a room.

011-591/2- 62-2951, palaciodesal.com.bo, doubles from $135.

Hotel Utter Inn, Vasteras, Sweden

What's so weird about this pint-size property in Sweden? At first glance, the one-room hotel appears to be a cheery red house in the middle of the lake—yes, it's in the middle of a body of water but how strange is that, really? Don't be fooled: The room isn't actually in the house; it's 10 feet underwater. It's also the only functioning underwater hotel that started out as an art installation. Designed by artist Mikael Genberg, the 10-year-old inn's sole room consists of two twin beds with panoramic windows on all sides. There is no electricity, but there is lighting and a portable gas heater. When ready to come up for air, guests can relax on the deck or take the dinghy out to one of the nearby uninhabited islands.

011-46/21-39-0100, vasterasmalarstaden.se, from $328 for two people, open April–Oct.

i'm in a desert now. a real one, not a spiritual one. wahahaha. so terribly happy to be here.

Palm Springs, CA.

John Crowder School of Mystics

JOYyyyyyyYYYYYyyyyyYYYYyyyyYYYYYyyyyyYYYYYY!!!

learning so much,

flew down to LA, rented car and drove here. rented an economy car but when i got there at 12am, they only had minvans and SUVs left. so i got a white Dodge Grand Caravan for the price of an economy! praise You Jesus!!

John Crowder is amazing! praise You Jesus!

got the book i've always wanted from him - The Ecstasy of Loving God! so happy.

learnt about trances and the supernatural stuff in church history.

Christianity is spelt G-I-F-T! you cant earn it, work for it, perform for it.

Jesus bore all your sins and punishment on the cross. He took all the wrath for you. God is pleased, delighted in you. He is happy with you. He enjoys you.

oh JOY!