sick sick!

arrgghhh... nose stuck n runny... i cant breathe... throat very sore... since 2am last night. feverish, greenish phlegm... sigh... Lord, heal me...

blogging more than 1400 ft above sea level!

these 2 dayz at Cameron has been really wonderful. i felt so much at rest the minute we arrived in the early hours yesterady morning. i slept like during odd times of the day, like fr 8am-1pm, then at 7-9pm. then on tues morning 6-1045am. but i m so refreshed! spent yesterday walking ard tanah rata, took alot of pics.

finally got to watch world cup! hee hee. ok lah... m upset South Korea is out. well, now i can cheer brazil on 'wholeheartedly".

promised uncle to go visit plantations and farms today... but after spending time wif God last night, i felt no peace going with them this morning. i felt God wanted me to spend more time with Him. afterall, isnt this wat i was here for? so after lunch and saying goodbye to them (apologising and explaining as well. cos uncle looked not too pleased that sis n i r not going with them), i head to T-cafe. (sis was not so thrilled to noe dat i changed my plans and wanted to stay in with her... so i decided to spend time outside n let her have whole apartment to herself.)

now at T-cafe (a "must-try" place here. highly recommended by friends and internet reviews). supposedly serves the best scones and apple pies. my scone is waiting for me at my table while i type this... so i dunno how gr8 it is yet!

had a really great time wif God! last night was like prep, hearing sikit, sikit (man.. i forgot all my malay, is this how to spell?! the right word is sedikit right? hmmm...) anyway, now is like huge stuff. all i can say is wonderful! God revealed Himself to me. showed me who i m, what i really want. there's such joy n peace! amazing! praise the Lord!

Rom 11:29, Jer 1. Jn 12, 1 Pet! (dats the summary for now!)

ms soot of the tai chee clan 上山练功!

dreamt dat i kena quarantined for bird flu... so wen i turned off the alarm clock, i felt feverish n terrible, n told myself, nevermind i got quarantined so cant going anywhere. then i rem i need to lead worship, so i told myself, "oh dear.. need to tell vince. like dat how ah? who lead worship?!" silly hor? hah! first time i actually woke up believing my dream!

whoa today is my bad worship day. sux. was so so tired. somehow sometime no voice, sometime got. farnie. anyway thank God it's over. i perspired like crazy lor. barry n i today no mo qi. he sing beginning i sing chorus. haha. anyway so glad God is way bigger than me! phew. came n touched so many pp. i m always so moved 2 see pp cry like crazy as they worship. men crying so hard as they sing "how could i live without You", seeing people sing "i love You... i need You..." it s so heartening to see people yearn for God like dat. God... come n make us hungry for You, make us desperate for You, we need You! More more!

interestingly, Zoot n Woot asked me today, "the adults more passionate than us meh?", "they say we youths very lethargic"... hmm...sad to say, "yah". my prayer is dat the youths will grow more on fire for God.

m Ms Soot of the Tai Chee clan! next sun must rem to wear the purple 'life is box of choco' shirt.

m itching to change my template! but no time... changes akan datang

so proud of myself! i finished my Operation Andrew housegroup leaders handout and booklet v2. ppt 1/2 way. need to go pack liao... looking forward to cameron! m so so tired. need this so desperately. Lord, let this be a good rest. let me meet up with You, let me be refreshed by Your Spirit. i wanna lay my burdens down, sit at Your feet, i wanna hear Your voice, i wanna wait on/ for You. i want You!

Psalm 116
6 The LORD protects the simplehearted;

when I was in great need, he saved me.
7 Be at rest once more, O my soul,

for the LORD has been good to you.
8 For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death,

my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling,
9 that I may walk before the LORD in the land of the living...
16 O LORD, truly I am your servant; I am your servant,

the son of your maidservant ; you have freed me from my chains.
17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to you and call on the name of the LORD.
18 I will fulfill my vows to the LORD in the presence of all his people..."

theme 4 this coming week:
Psalm 25
4Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior,

and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old.
7 Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways;

according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.
12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?

He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
13 He will spend his days in prosperity,

and his descendants will inherit the land.
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;

he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,

for only he will release my feet from the snare.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied; free me from my anguish.

ramblings... eyes wide shut

yo! thanks to those who prayed for us as we met for prayer and planning today. i trust dat it was good and we are doing wat we should. was really tired but thank God i pulled thru. i felt like i've got only a quarter of a brain! =p

wanted juz to blog "i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired".. but then... i got tired typing it... ! really wonder y i m so tired. hope this spell of tiredness will be broken! this weekend is so so packed! n my worship list is not out yet!

so looking forward to going for a break! yay! will take the time to sleep, read, journal, sketch, spend loads of time wif God n nature.

there's juz so many things going on. so many 'battles' to 'fight', so many 'fires' to put out. need to choose wisely. or else not effective, do more harm than good. God, pls grant me wisdom! - KH.A.V.L.D get on our knees people! we need to get busy praying

wah.. 1st human-human case of bird flu... it's coming! it's coming!

mood: feel kinda strangely hypomanic! or m i juz really depressed n kidding myself? haha

go to sleep evan!

sleeping beauty? not!

so so so so tired these dayz! i dun believe it! man this is really bad. n it's not even cos i was up watching world cup! if i were, at least i got a reason to be so tired...! fact remains dat i'm too tired n busy to catch a match!

so tired i cant even work properly! SHAKE HEAD been sleeping so soundly on public transport again... eg if in mrt, i ll be nodding on pp right n left of me... n if no one beside me, i'll sleep fine. but if there is, i ll noe in my sleep there's some1 i keep 'knocking' into. woke up yesterday on the mrt to find the cabin almost empty. the guy on my left could have moved away. he's not sitting there cos i m leaning on him lah. i dun lean, i nod n nod. he continued sitting beside me to kena my knocks. pissed. today i mouth open big big on bus! wah. dunno wat s gotten into me. tired until like dat.

i need to work now but wen i got home (at 10pm), i slept on my bed for 25 min. i'm struggling terribly to d/l my mail n think abt tmr. this never happens... i m supposed to be wide awake at night! but now... i'm never wide awake night or day!

pray for me n my students. we r meeting for prayer n planning whole of tmr. pray for all of us. pray for God s leading and abiding presence. thanks

somewhere along the way...her milk and cookies became her latte and biscotti

d 1st song reminded me that sometimes we go to God for other things rather than for Him - relationship, ministry, needs, wants... more often than not we pray or read the bible looking for God's answer to our problems, or relationship thingy (whatever have you)... failing to go to Him for Him... straining to get the answer we want, rather than hear wat He wants to tell us... it's a call back to the heart of worship. it's so nice to hear Him call me, beckon me, hasten me to Him. telling me dat it's about Him, not ministry, not persons, not needs (not mine or others')... it's so wonderful, so humbling, n so heart-wrenching.
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later at youth, we did a guys'/ gals' talk thingy. sitting there i feel the issues and stuff brought up seem like a lifetime away. which was kinda true cos i m twice the age of some present. i ve actually lived a lifetime more than them! i got this "been-there-done-that" feeling (which i get alot since hanging out wif them)- things dat r so impt to them, d thrills, how they fill their dayz, wat they look foreward to... [now dis is not derogatory!]

Angel had a slide today dat had a pic of a little girl, and her as a woman. and it says "somewhere along the way, Laurie's milk and cookies became her latte and biscotti". yeah.. along the way, i became an adult. yesterday's mountains are molehills compared to today's... yester years' youth vs adults complains... took on another perpective simply cos i crossed over the chasm and now the youths see me as 'the adults'!

so i'm like living out my teenhood backwards!
played soul calibur and fatal frame for the first time! my thumb is still hurting from pressing n turning the joystick! i was lamenting about the waste of precious hours n some1 said dats how they'd rather spend their time! whoa... haha... going thru the adolescent years in my twenties!

initially, it was hard being in youth. they made sure i know i was way older than them, n not part of the group. after sometime, they got used to me. guess they realised i m gonna be here anyway so tolerate lor... hee. then, they began 2 open up, share more, ask more. Thank God! today, Char told me Gissy said she liked talking to me. dat felt very consoling.

well, i'll get used to the disorientation soon. yeep n kim kept saying (since eons ago) dat i've never been a youth - i skipped the adolescence part n went str fr kid to adult! n i ve never been a youth person. but God called me here to s-t-r-e-t-c-h me. there's much 2 learn. hang on 4 the ride! ganbade!

frenz no enuf

right now i m lamenting about my lack of hang-out frens. man... i scrolled thru the hundreds of numbers in my hp... n msn... i'm supposed to have legions! haiz. where's one wen u need?

arts n soccer meet! S'pore Arts Fest n World Cup

it's Arts Fest again!
but the only thing i managed to catch so ffar was this at Raffles City yesterday.tot it was very creative in fusing art n the biggest current event- WORLD CUP 2006.

they used the space at the crossing from Raffles City to Chjmes/ Bras Basar as the soccer arena. any1 walking across the area marked out fr 6-7.30pm will be part of the 'soccer game' which is aired on the big screen inside Raffles City. pretty interesting except that most people outside didn;t have a slighest clue wat s happening and the people watching the 'game' inside didn;t know where the action is taking place. it would have been better if the screen n the 'soccer arena' was the same place ( as shown in the promo pic). i actually was camera shy! hee. moved away wen the camera was on me. well, do check out the Art fest outreach performances and those at the Esplanade's outdoor theatre!

the below was taken fr the arts fest site on the soccer thingy: http://www.singaporeartsfest.com/Outreach/special_events.htm

Finals!Grejpfrut (Slovenia)

What do you get when you combine unsuspecting passers-by, deft video editing and the world’s most popular sport? Well, if you’re lucky, a scored goal ... but if not, loads of fun and laughs!
Catch World Cup fever at the Festival with this multimedia street theatre performance and fulfil your fantasies of becoming a football star instantly! Hear the crowd roar as you pass the ‘ball’ or make a crunching tackle, avoid getting a red card ... or go straight for the goal! Street soccer meets impromptu comedy with ‘live’ commentaries. This is one soccer match you don’t want to miss...
Look out for guest appearance by S.League footballers Lionel Lewis, John Wilkinson and Jonathan Angelucci.
15 – 18 June, 1pm & 6.30pmCity Square, Raffles CityFree Admission

on MC again

i don't handle pain very well. i wince and whine. (only if i let u close enough to hear.)
since thurs it was the sore gum and bad bad headache...
just when i thought i can bid pain in the mouth goodbye, my tonsils act up again. this time it hurt alot more than usual and got me worried. went to see the doctor, and found out that there is an ulcer near my tonsil that is causing me so much agony.
i have never really gotten sick enuf to not talk. wat a tooth extraction (n illnessess like lung infection) cannot do, an ill-positioned ulcer plus tonsilitis can -- got me disinterested in talking.

lady in pain. wisdomless

i taste blood again.
was like dat most of yesterday. t'was a whoosh of blood n saliva whenever i bit on d gauze. tot d ordeal over but i guess some lunch bits found their way to the gaping hole. again, the epicenter sends out shock waves of throbbing pain. forgive the frumpled forehead, knitted brows and pressed lips.

finally got rid of my wisdom yesterday. was a long postponed event but yet was a spur of the moment, walk-in, pull out, then meet frenz for dim sum after kinda thing. i forgot dat i wud b in much pain (n hence amazed my frenz at my lack of foresight - in not being able to enjoy the food... n having a swell on my face for today's wedding!)

yesterday's encounter wif the dentist was a long, bloody n gory affair. he huffed and puffed, tugged and pulled, turned and twisted this way and that, and finally after much prayers on both our parts, the tooth came out. i wanted to post the pic of my tooth. but i dun have digi cam! cause of fight against being uprooted - one of the roots was unusually curled up and twisted... it's wat i call a diehard tooth. the dentist rewarded himself by charging a hefty bill and rewarded me for my long suffering wif 2 dayz MC.

In view of current state, i deem myself unfit for travel on 1-inch heels. too bad, vanity overrides reason once again. have been running around on dat for a whole day already, wat's 3 hours more?

today's wedding was a lunch reception after solemnisation and soon to take place, 10-course dinner at oriental (i think!) CONGRATS SEAN N WEI! Sean, u're the man! u won all our hearts with your tears. looking forward to your speech (Wei told us she read it already n was ichiban!) i wish you "yong yu ai he", may you both stay true to your vows and inspire others with your love for and commitment to each other. God bless you.

note to self: must blog/journal abt Spiritual lessons: idols, singleness of mind/heart/eye, pract lesson, movie moment, D's grad - Rick Langston's exhortation, GDOP

more debbie! but...NO MORE RHYME! =)

found alots fr my debbie gibson search! decided against blogging it all at 1 go... so now, here's my absolute fav debbie song - NO MORE RHYME. somehow d lyrics hit me real hard wen i was merely 9... and still do...
she writes profound stuff for an 18 yr old!

When the fear sets in
Where the fire burns, Where I find a place
Where there's nowhere to turn
When the evening sings an eerie song
Longing for the day you say I'm wrong

You can find your place but never fit in
And only when you've left do you know where you've been
I can see the light but only when it's gone
You can go on waiting but only for so long

I know we are right, It's not always clear
Because I've never felt the fear
Can it stay so good forever in time?
I've always felt the rhythm
What happens when there's no more rhyme

Can we face ourselves like we face each other?
We've never felt anything on our own
I can't wait much longer to feel any danger
I hope we're not living for a lifetime alone

Hard to go on
It's like waiting for
The other shoe to drop
I'll never stop
Believing in you...
if u are wondering where's debbie gibson now...

debbie's offical website
finally remembered d cause of my P3-6 vest-donning dayz... c d vid below!

debbie gibson's electric youth

was sitting at ECP waiting for pris lah... dat gal so late then reach... while waiting, heard electric youth. made a mental note 2 search 4 dis vid!

this song brings back loads of memories! dat was when my age was denoted by A SINGLE digit!!! man! SO LONG AGO! Was dancing n singing to it wif cousins... our fav song esp when playing MAD DOG! haha... those were the dayz... now if we play a bit we ll really look like mad dogs! hee...

happy birthday pris

love ya, always!!!

blogged cos this is HILARIOUS!
Quote of the week:
"you are whitney houston compared to A _ _ _ _ _ lah!" - D[she dat shall not be named]

cant believe she said dat of her hubby-2-b! i cant feel v complimented cos according to D[she dat shall not be named], her hubby-2-b really CMI! muahaha...

D[she dat shall not be named], knew i couldnt get away wif 'juz come n eat food' at ur wedding given our relationship... so yeah... this is my official agreement, i shall b ur wedding coordinator... u'd better start sucking up to me or it'll be horrible! *evil laugh* (u sure u want me to coordinate?!)

seriously... thank you 4 d long talk tonight. you r d 2nd person who said u r glad i m alive! (what was ur "i'm glad u r..."number 2 n 3 again?). i thank God for you! thank u for saying you love me (at the point in conversation! was very releasing.) thank you for your love. means so much. i love you too!
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am home alone these few dayz... mom n sis away at church camp... din go 4 various reasons. so now i m spending time going thru expository tapes on Romans... getting my fill of spiritual food n reflection. but seriously miss them! never thot i would... but usually m the one away. so now's my turn to be left behind. it feels terrible living alone! (n this is fr a recluse who loves n needs alot of alone time!) love having the whole house to myself. dat aside, coming home to an empty house knowing no1 else is coming back tonight sucks. (i usually come back wen every1 else is already in). n i get the important task of watering the plants daily.. which i have yet to do for today! oops! cannot let my mom's glorious plants wither! gtg!