sat afternoon... taking the chill pill, enjoying my time home alone. it's been quite awhile... since i've spent sometime on my own. and i miss it. blogging now cos now i have the comp to myself. otherwise, it's gonna be the guit, the journal, the Bible and the book i'm currently reading - The Leadership Challenge. somehow feel guilty not blogging as often as i used to. well, it's not that i dun like blogging anymore, just that i don't have as much time as i like for retrospection, introspection, to think abt min, life, pp, time for myself, to be by myself. added onto that is that i've been coming home real late and either someone's on the comp or my bro's gotta sleep. my time on the comp is 4 responding to emails and do work. so yeah... here i m now... trying to pay my penance! haha.

got up, flipped thru the papers. found out today's got 3 movies on Ch5. juz finished watching "A Time of Dancing" (2000, Shiri Appleby). watched it 1.5 times. think i stumbled upon it at the tail end the previous time so i m glad 2 ve been able 2 catch it this time. was a really good movie abt 2 high sch bestfriends. both dancers. how each pursued wat was written in their souls.one kena terminal cancer n died. i cried bad. maybe cos there's a few pp close to my heart dat's got relapse recently. it's a painful thing seeing a loved one this frail, this eaten up. on the brighter side, the show made me feel like taking out my ballet shoes and dance again. i miss dancing. love the songs in there too... shall go get it fr the stores... itunes somehow dun haf!

tonight got "Confessions of a teenage drama queen"(Lindsay Lohan) and "Good girl" (Jennifer Aniston). shall try to catch. n shall try to go for a jog. shant let the nerve thing stop me fr runnin. will b careful not to strain myself tho. will try see doc soon. tho it wasnt on purpose that i've yet to do so.

Juz checked out the trailer of Confessions of a teenage drama queen and one quote hit me - "Life can be so randomly beautiful!" Yep to dat!

The Leadersip Challenge - Kouzes & Posner
i bought this 400+ pages book cos of ELT's reading assignment where we were given $20 reimbursement. i decided on it since this is like one of the best books on leadership, and since it is one book i'll never buy on my own cos it's S$38.80, i decided to use the $20 "grant" on this. turned out, my boss decided to fully reimburse me! haha... i "tan tiok"! some pp say i "siao" cos i chose sucha thick n "heavy" book to review on. well... since i m gonna spend time to do it, might as well spend my time on a really good book and challenge myself with it. no kick if it's a thin, easy to read book. dat i can knock it down anytime. so... ve been learning alot fr it. n wat i like most abt this book is the numerous research and studies quoted. wat a wealth of insight and information. i dun like reading books that say something n yet dun back their claims nor give credit to the source.

here, lemme quote u John Robbins, founder of EarthSave Int'l and chairman of Youth for Environment Sanity, and on board of directors of many nonprofit orgs. was heir to Baskin-Robbins the ice cream company. but he opted out of the company's succesion, refused inheritance and trust fund :
"do you understand, that for me, sensing these things as deeply as i do, inventing a thirty-second flavour just is not an adequate response."
"make a statement with your life that's consistent with your heart, that gives voice to what you really feel is important. we don't have alot of opportunities, most of us, to take stands - that are seen, anyway, that are visible. But my feeling is that you take it, whether it's seen or not, whether it's recognised or not, whether it's cheered or jeered. You do it because it's in you to do it, and because by doing it you're being true to who you are."
"in order to find your voice and find the song that's within your heart and sing it with your life, you need some daily things that you do regularly, whether you feel like it or not, that's nurturing your soul, a time of prayer, a time of contemplation..."

what is an adequate response to what is written in your soul?

i think leadership is a tough thing. u need to make tough decisions that no one wants to make.
Dear Mr President - Pink

juz come across this vid from an artiste i do like alot. but i feel this is so unfair for the said "Mr President". the lines "let me tell me about hard work..." or "how do you sleep"... seriously... we cant imagine the pressure of being a leader... n a leader of the world at that. u think it is easy? u think ur life's harder than his? sigh. n u think u r "mizunderstood"! Pink, think again.