my Heavenly Father spoke to me through my earthly father

22 Aug:
we had our Survivor Talk (How to survive year one) for the M1s. we got seniors who did very well to share tips on the year one subjects like anat, physio, and biochem. I prayed hard that God will use this to establish a bridge between us and the year ones so that we could have more targeted evangelistic programmes in time to come. My dad’s sms on 11.54am that day read: Isaiah 45:22 Look unto me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the earth: for I am God & there is no one else.
I felt it was God’s reassurance of His presence and His unction on this events and also on the outreach work we will be doing in this year.

26 Aug:
I was very tired. Have 2 back to back Discipleship groups and speaking at LM. Slept 2 hours due to various fire fighting situations. Was very unsettled, fretful and even angry that morning. Was trying to calm myself and get ready for the day and praying so terribly hard and desperately from 730-930. was telling God He had to show up in the ministry. at 949am, dad sms-ed me: “Ps 12v5/6 But now I will come.’ Says the Lord. Because the needy are oppressed and the persecuted groan in pain. I will give them the security they long for.
I checked my Bible which was the NIV. It didn’t read like this. In fact, if the verse was given in NIV, it wouldn’t have spoken to me in my situation. The funny thing was that this version (whichever it is from) starts with “but now I will come” and when I read it, it almost seemed audible to me as if God was speaking as He arose. I was in awe and at rest. Indeed He came and supernaturally sustained me. I know I couldn’t have survived the day on my own strength. He held me throughout the day. It was really amazing.

30 Aug:
the storm has blown in.
I had not been so anxious in a long while. I was so edgy and my hands were cold (usu I m more on the warm side. Pp use my hands to ‘warm them’.) and the whole afternoon was a “wash-down the drain”. I just don’t seem to be able to find the peace and assurance that I so needed from God. Dad sms at 4.42pm when I was on my way to NUH for DG: Ps 91v14 God says, “I will save those who love me and will protect those who acknowledge me as Lord.” This is not a word just for me but also for the others involved in this situation.
I really dunno how to pick up the pieces. Nevermind I was misrepresented at certain points, nevermind that my actions probably are misconstrued, nevermind that perhaps I have lost the friendship that I have been putting so much effort building up. I have to trust that God who has led me, and even the min to this point knows what He is doing and is bringing about a good for all that we now cannot see.
The tension and strain will be there. But I will trust the Lord of reconciliation to work things out. I desire to see growth and that the persons to succeed. How I wish this “cup” can pass from me. but this is my lot for the moment. Not an enviable position but a faith stretching one. And somehow I m led to give thanks nevertheless. I will trust. What an interesting blend of fear and faith, of love and anger, of anxiety and rest.

It’s surprising that God chose to speak through my most unlikely person. My dad is someone who has chosen to repeatedly turn his back to God. And he is Chinese educated. His English is BAD. The verses, I believe have been sms-ed to him by another bro-in-Christ who is trying to reach out to him at the moment. But God chose to use him. Why? Perhaps to remind me that He has not given up on him. But definitely to show that He speaks and is able to use ANY.

Pls pray with me for my dad that those words of life will not just pass through his hands as sms-es received and forwarded. But that the scales in his eyes will drop and he will see the truth and repent. Pray with me that he will see that he is walking towards destruction and will turn back to the God who has been calling out to him. Pray that the prodigal will return. Pray that just as my Heavenly Father is speaking to me through my earthly father, one day my earthly father will speak of my Heavenly Father. I typed this in tears. I claim that we who go out sowing in tears will indeed reap in joy. Thank you for praying with me.