power nap weekend

came back on fri late aft, DEAD TIRED. went home. put lugguage, wash up. power napped 20 min then hastily went out to host Americans. was very very tired but felt kinda bad if i dun "jin di zhu zhi yi". brought them to Lau Pat Sat, then Night Safari. was too late so didn't bring them for durians. was fun being with them. no regrets... except dat the weekend was a dragging of my body and pushing myself for events aft events. sat am at punggol sec, power napped 20 min than rushed out for worship pract. was rather unprepared n really didn't know how i wanted the songs 2 b played.

yearning for bed whole of fri n sat. planned to sleep at 930 on sat so can b fresh to lead worship. but somehow felt prompted to turn on hp at 10+. got a voicemail. was a rather urgent/desperate sounding one. returned call. talked till 12+. told God He gotta help since He got me picking up this call. He did. woke up on sun still dark n felt fresh n ready.

was blessed to finally have a drummer so tried the tough, "beaty" hillsongs. n abi wanted me to teach "Still". agreed cos it fit into my theme n felt God wanted to minister thru dat song even tho i wasn't familiar wif it. abi had to teach me. n it did turn out dat so many people were bawling while we sang "Still". i was kinda blown away myself juz seeing how powerful it was. wanted to follow up on "with all i m" after teaching it in January so turned out sun worship was very "hillsongy". have nothing against them but i m not particularly very "hillsongy".

n was kinda feeling anxious cos the songs were not easy... n i kept going off key during sat n sun pract! but God showed up at service. i did fine. i really had to hand it to Him. i really have stage fright re singing. emcee-ing, acting, dancing, preaching, no prob. but i freeze up badly when singing. i always freak. n was really wondering why on earth i subject my nerves to such torture.

hiaz. God calls n works in weird ways. He chose to call n use me in worship. i juz gotta obey. i always tot i'd ve 2 minister in my weakness but it turned out to b an area of gifting. if u hear me during pract u'll freak too. but it seems i sing ok during the real thing! n i look confident n all. tho really freaking out inside. so, i'm discovering gifts this feb - hospitality n worship. hmmm... juz keeping my fingers crossed dat the freaking out will eventually go away.

sunday was another full day with poiema then WL training. i was surprised i even lasted dis long. went home to power nap 30 min. then woke for dinner n do stuff.

so yay for power naps n power fr on high! PTL.