hiaz... it s been very hard on every1, especially grandma. m really really really really dead tired. came back for a bath cos really cant bring myself 2 bathe there. slept a bit... now walking ard like zombie... headache since sat... shall have to DONG till wed afternoon...
will b making the void deck my "home". this is not the first time n i shudder to think this will not b the last. m so glad bro took leave to do "guard duty" wif me 4 this whole time. if not it'll juz b gals... had a gr8 time talking all night wif him. n found he can even sleep squating! impressive! hahaha... i can last better than him!
then i guess for the 1st time in my life i realised i got my "nocturnal" bit fr my dad.
since i was the person there most of the time, i had the chance to really talk deep one-on-one wif my relatives. m alone wif grandma most of the time... had a gr8 time wif her in the wee hours of this morning aft her sleep. finally was more conversant. n yes, i can really listen n talk like foreva... m amazed dat i can b so terribly awake anytime as long as there is someone who wants/needs to talk...
wakes do things to people. draw relatives closer, make people reflective, even feel remorseful or guilty for how they could have lived differently... things go beyond the superficial, beyond the taking for granted, beyond past faults and failures, beyond differences n grievances...
aiyah... i can go on and go... there's so much dat happened during last week n weekend i wanna blog down too... but headache...
"It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go to a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart." - Ecc 7:2
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