m surprised i m really enjoying my CNY! haha... i was surprised comments and questions like "wish u find ur Ru Yi Lang Jun soon!", "hey quick quick get married ah?", "still no boyfriend ah? not young leh..." didn't bother me and i took it in good humour and sincerely acknowledging n accepting their well wishes etc. even hearing Daniel Beddingfield's "If you're not the one" twice didn't bother me. haha... yes i was 'untouchable' yesterday!
the day started with me nearly hyperventilating... was so freaking out. wo de di yi ci... bro said can c i was nervous throughout. worship went well... despite keyboardist n guitarist not sync-ing at first, mic dying on me, so had to use back-up's mic, so no back-up etc... was still so 'traumatised' till late in the afternoon tho. was really encouraged by affirmation given by so many. i must say dat God showed up. (nb. ref to journal entry)
the weather was great! had a good time at grandma's. she din do her 'show' as i had expected. 3rd aunt n family there... then jiu kong po's family came in full force... was fun juz seeing 12 adults and 7 kids in a one-room flat n d havoc created.
then over at po po's... everyone was there relatively early.(usu late late aft) it's always so gr8 2 haf 4 generations tog. man... my cousins r so chio!! then went off to da gu's pl while the rest went 4 dinner.
gr8 time at Da Gu's. had a deep heart-to-heart talk. she really is such a fillial daughter. had a gr8 time wif sis wen we had the whole dinner table 2 ourselves... man! she can remember so many details of our childhood. eg. how i provoked her by taking her fav pink handkerchief n threatening to use "with my milk-breath" on it(she hates milk!) which led 2 her chasing and biting me on the back and how she refused to let go of her bite until i returned her the hankie!haha....! n yes... how she invented the game FRANKENSTEIN! so so fun!
joined our cousins later in the night at Fisherman's village. it's been so so long since we had "full" attendance... 2nd-5th aunts' kids i mean... we hanged out till 4am... so fun drinking, watching midnight movie, then supper, reminiscing good old times (man! we are like so old now!?!?! we needed to start with 'more than 20 years ago....') and e younger 1s listening 2 'old grandfather's stories'. haha... had so much fun! talking abt e silly n naughty things we did, e scary movies we watched dat made me so frightened, and playing MAD DOG!!! sigh... we really had so much fun!
so thankful to God for family. n thankful 2 know how some r growing in faith n trusting the others dat they too will soon return to Him.
Monday, January 30, 2006
Saturday, January 28, 2006
in her shoes - the movie
caught it sometime back with Bu. only got time n space now to sit n blog it. check out my entries on IN HER SHOES in Nov 2005. all the poems r there too. all my "imaginings" were not too off afterall. was so relieved the movie did not disappoint! it was GOOD!!! Maggie wasn't such a dislikeable character. Cameron Diaz did a great job making her look real instead of plain bimbotic n devious. (her body...wow!) toni collete was exactly was i thot Rose should b. i was almost convinced her teeth was made up. (any1 can verify dat? toni collette doesn't have a gab in her teeth in real life but she did in the movie.) the director did a gr8 job in cutting the novel down into a 2 hours show. the parts that were crucial to the development of the plot and the integrity of the characters were there. Kudos to that!
what was in the novel that was not in the movie:
Maggie's princeton stint. i was a little shocked when she went to Palm Springs 2 look for grandma instead of Princeton. i thot the movie's gonna leave out the crucial intellectual growth and character change... and my fave literature lect where the significant reading of "The Art of Losing"... but no it didn't! it was wonderfully woven into her stint at the hospital which i thot made it alot more concise n meaningful. Stein is not dorky n pesty in the movie... which makes Rose settling for him a tad more sweet.
unforgetable lines:
"... you will want to eat with me for the rest of your life." the whole theatre went "AWWWWwww..."
"what completes you?" Stein asked Rose... she didn't know... she needed to find herself. nearing the end, she told him, "my sister completes me."
the two sisters who thot they couldn't be more different reminds me of my sis n i. wanted to watch the movie wif sis but she's not willing to spend on movies... will get the VCD n watch wif her...
wat the novel and movie did for me: uncovered my desire to have a deeper relationship wif sis... she is so dear... n yet... i dun tell her or show her dat.
well, the only appropriate ending to this entry would be:
Hui, i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) from E E Cummings' poem of the same title read by Maggie to Rose in IN HER SHOES
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Theodore Roosevelt quotes
“it is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deed could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, and comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; who does actually try to do the deed; who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion and spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.
Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs even though checkered by failure, than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat.”
– Theodore Roosevelt, Speech before the Hamilton Club, Chicago (April 10, 1899)
There is not a man of us who does not at times need a helping hand stretched out to him. and then shame upon him who will not stretch out the helping hand to his brother.
Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs even though checkered by failure, than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat.”
– Theodore Roosevelt, Speech before the Hamilton Club, Chicago (April 10, 1899)
There is not a man of us who does not at times need a helping hand stretched out to him. and then shame upon him who will not stretch out the helping hand to his brother.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
take a 10 sec silence to mourn the demise of my fav T-Shirt - "Now What?" it's been with me since dec 1995!!! finally tore at the shoulders while i was playing badminton yesterday! sob... sigh... i always knew *music playing* "I'm to sexy for my shirt... too sexy for my shirt..." hahha...! man... i'm bipolar. muahahaha
i'm so so tired this week!! something's wrong wif my syst... not falling sick... but my cycle's topsy turvy...! n i get so dead tired n can hardly do anywork at night after i reach home. can u imagine i actually slept at 9 on my sofa after my dinner on mon nite without watching Gray's Anat n Srcubs? i juz KO. n.. i dun usually 'fall' asleep. anyway the situation din not improve over the days. was barely awake on my way home... so so... dead tired!
oh... nearly signed off... but...
m reading The Divine Romance by Gene Edwards (one of my fav Christian authors). the book calls me back to a deeper love relationship with the Lover of my soul.. m kinda captivated by God's love and desire for His bride, the church. the unrelentless and unwavering affection... compels and draws me to reciprocate...
Love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and strength...
i'm so so tired this week!! something's wrong wif my syst... not falling sick... but my cycle's topsy turvy...! n i get so dead tired n can hardly do anywork at night after i reach home. can u imagine i actually slept at 9 on my sofa after my dinner on mon nite without watching Gray's Anat n Srcubs? i juz KO. n.. i dun usually 'fall' asleep. anyway the situation din not improve over the days. was barely awake on my way home... so so... dead tired!
oh... nearly signed off... but...
m reading The Divine Romance by Gene Edwards (one of my fav Christian authors). the book calls me back to a deeper love relationship with the Lover of my soul.. m kinda captivated by God's love and desire for His bride, the church. the unrelentless and unwavering affection... compels and draws me to reciprocate...
Love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and strength...
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
everyone needs someone
i finish Memoirs last thurs... got alot of thots on dat... but will write more on dat after i;ve watched the movie... anyway, one thing dat hit me fr dat was the influence of a mentor...
Sayuri had Mameha... n she flourished under her. Pumpkin had Hatsumomo... n even though Pumpkin hated Hatsumomo... the latter's bitter spirit rubbed off unto Pumpkin who eventually bore hatred towards Sayuri dat resulted in her exacting 'revenge' instead of being able to receive love and rebuild the friendship between them.
everyone needs someone to mentor... and whether u know it or not, both come away from it changed. something abt the mentor, as well as something of the mentee gets rubbed off and onto the other...
was home last thurs evening. was trying to finish reading Memoirs when mom started talking to me. she shared how the lady she was mentoring was growing so much, was struggling with a big trial etc... i was glad dat she had my mom to journey wif her. she grew so much in such a short time and not just her... but it seems she helped my mom as well. it seemed mom's ministry calling n gifting is getting clearer from where God has been placing her and what God has been using her in.
then mom went on to share abt her own struggles etc etc... i was a little impatient to get on with my reading, yet, something nudged me. listen. be all here. i put my book down and listened. after her sharing, mom actually thanked me for being home, for listening to her! 2x!! i almost cried. she didn't have to thank me. she did cos it is sucha rarity! it just shows how often i m not home, how little i sit to listen! will try to be ard more often.
Sayuri had Mameha... n she flourished under her. Pumpkin had Hatsumomo... n even though Pumpkin hated Hatsumomo... the latter's bitter spirit rubbed off unto Pumpkin who eventually bore hatred towards Sayuri dat resulted in her exacting 'revenge' instead of being able to receive love and rebuild the friendship between them.
everyone needs someone to mentor... and whether u know it or not, both come away from it changed. something abt the mentor, as well as something of the mentee gets rubbed off and onto the other...
was home last thurs evening. was trying to finish reading Memoirs when mom started talking to me. she shared how the lady she was mentoring was growing so much, was struggling with a big trial etc... i was glad dat she had my mom to journey wif her. she grew so much in such a short time and not just her... but it seems she helped my mom as well. it seemed mom's ministry calling n gifting is getting clearer from where God has been placing her and what God has been using her in.
then mom went on to share abt her own struggles etc etc... i was a little impatient to get on with my reading, yet, something nudged me. listen. be all here. i put my book down and listened. after her sharing, mom actually thanked me for being home, for listening to her! 2x!! i almost cried. she didn't have to thank me. she did cos it is sucha rarity! it just shows how often i m not home, how little i sit to listen! will try to be ard more often.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
History of Dentistry and Dental Care
By Mary Bellis
Dental Fillings - Dental Amalgam
Cavities are holes in our teeth created by the wear, tear, and decay of tooth enamel. Dental cavities have been repaired or filled with a variety of materials including: stone chips, turpentine resin, gum, and metals. Arculanus (Giovanni d' Arcoli) was the first person to recommend gold-leaf fillings in 1848. History of the Debate about Mercury
"French dentists were the first to mix mercury with various other metals and plug the mixture into cavities in teeth. The first mixtures, developed in the early 1800s, had relatively little mercury in them and had to be heated to get the metals to bind. In 1819, a man named Bell in England developed an amalgam mix with much more mercury in it that bound the metals at room temperature. Taveau in France developed a similar mixture in 1826."
Dental Floss
is an ancient invention. Researchers have found dental floss and toothpick grooves in the teeth of prehistoric humans. Levi Spear Parmly (1790-1859), a New Orleans dentist is credited as being the inventor of modern dental floss (or maybe the term re-inventor would be more accurate). Parmly promoted teeth flossing with a piece of silk thread in 1815. In 1882, the Codman and Shurtleft Company of Randolph, Massachusetts started to mass-produce unwaxed silk floss for commercial home use. The Johnson and Johnson Company of New Brunswick, New Jersey were the first to patent dental floss in 1898. Dr. Charles C. Bass developed nylon floss as a replacement for silk floss during WW II. Dr. Bass was also responsible for making teeth flossing an important part of dental hygiene.
Dentist's Chair
In 1848, Waldo Hanchett patented the dental chair. Dentist's Drill On January 26, 1875, George Green patented the first electric dental drill.
False Teeth
date back as far as 700 BC. The Etruscans designed false teeth out of ivory and bone that were secured into the mouth by gold bridgework.
Novocain - Alfred Einhorn There is historical evidence that the ancient Chinese used acupuncture around 2700 BC to treat the pain associated with tooth decay. The first local anesthetic used in dentistry was Cocaine, introduced as an anesthetic by Carl Koller (1857-1944) in 1884. Researchers soon began working on a non-addictive substitute for Cocaine, and as a result German Chemist, Alfred Einkorn introduced Novocain in 1905. Alfred Einkorn was researching an easy-to-use and safe local anesthesia to use on soldiers during wartime. He refined the chemical procaine until it was more effective, and named the new product Novocain. Novocain never became popular for military use; however, it did become popular as an anesthetic among dentists. In 1846, Dr. William Morton, a Massachusetts dentist, was the first dentist to use anesthesia for tooth extraction.
Orthodontics
Although teeth straightening and extraction to improve alignment of remaining teeth has been practiced since early times, orthodontics as a science of its own did not really exits until the 1880s. The history of dental braces or the science of orthodontics is very complex. Many different inventors helped to create braces, as we know them today.
• Historians claim that two different men deserve the title of being called "The Father of Orthodontics." One man was Norman W. Kingsley, a dentist, writer, artist, and sculptor, who wrote his "Treatise on Oral Deformities" in 1880. What Kingsley wrote influenced the new dental science greatly. The second man who deserves credit was a dentist named J. N. Farrar who wrote two volumes entitled "A Treatise on the Irregularities of the Teeth and Their Corrections". Farrar was very good at designing brace appliances, and he was the first to suggest the use of mild force at timed intervals to move teeth.
• Edward H. Angle (1855-1930) devised the first simple classification system for malocclusions, which is still in use today. His classification system was a way for dentists to describe how crooked teeth are, what way teeth are pointing, and how teeth fit together. In 1901, Angle started the first school of orthodontics.
• In 1864, Dr. S.C. Barnum of New York invented the rubber dam.
• Eugene Solomon Talbot's (1847-1924) was the first person to use X-rays for orthodontic diagnosis.
• Calvin S. Case was the first person to use rubber elastics with braces.
Invisalign Braces
invented by Zia Chishti, are transparent, removable, and moldable braces. Instead of one pair of braces that are constantly adjusted, a series of braces are worn in succession each created by a computer. Unlike regular braces, Invisaligns can be removed for teeth cleaning. Zia Chishti, along with his business partner Kelsey Wirth, founded Align Technology in 1997 to develop and manufacture the braces. Invisalign braces were first made available to the public in May of 2000.
Toothpaste was used as long ago as 500 BC in both China and India; however, modern toothpastes were developed in the 1800s. In 1824, a dentist named Peabody was the first person to add soap to toothpaste. John Harris first added chalk as an ingredient to toothpaste in the 1850s. In 1873, Colgate mass-produced the first toothpaste in a jar. In 1892, Dr. Washington Sheffield of Connecticut manufactured toothpaste into a collapsible tube. Sheffield's toothpaste was called Dr. Sheffield's Creme Dentifrice. In 1896, Colgate Dental Cream was packaged in collapsible tubes imitating Sheffield. Advancements in synthetic detergents made after WW II allowed for the replacement of the soap used in toothpaste with emulsifying agents such as Sodium Lauryl Sulphate and Sodium Ricinoleate. A few years later, Colgate started to add fluoride to toothpaste.
source:http://inventors.about.com/library/inventors/bldental.htm
Dental Fillings - Dental Amalgam
Cavities are holes in our teeth created by the wear, tear, and decay of tooth enamel. Dental cavities have been repaired or filled with a variety of materials including: stone chips, turpentine resin, gum, and metals. Arculanus (Giovanni d' Arcoli) was the first person to recommend gold-leaf fillings in 1848. History of the Debate about Mercury
"French dentists were the first to mix mercury with various other metals and plug the mixture into cavities in teeth. The first mixtures, developed in the early 1800s, had relatively little mercury in them and had to be heated to get the metals to bind. In 1819, a man named Bell in England developed an amalgam mix with much more mercury in it that bound the metals at room temperature. Taveau in France developed a similar mixture in 1826."
Dental Floss
is an ancient invention. Researchers have found dental floss and toothpick grooves in the teeth of prehistoric humans. Levi Spear Parmly (1790-1859), a New Orleans dentist is credited as being the inventor of modern dental floss (or maybe the term re-inventor would be more accurate). Parmly promoted teeth flossing with a piece of silk thread in 1815. In 1882, the Codman and Shurtleft Company of Randolph, Massachusetts started to mass-produce unwaxed silk floss for commercial home use. The Johnson and Johnson Company of New Brunswick, New Jersey were the first to patent dental floss in 1898. Dr. Charles C. Bass developed nylon floss as a replacement for silk floss during WW II. Dr. Bass was also responsible for making teeth flossing an important part of dental hygiene.
Dentist's Chair
In 1848, Waldo Hanchett patented the dental chair. Dentist's Drill On January 26, 1875, George Green patented the first electric dental drill.
False Teeth
date back as far as 700 BC. The Etruscans designed false teeth out of ivory and bone that were secured into the mouth by gold bridgework.
Novocain - Alfred Einhorn There is historical evidence that the ancient Chinese used acupuncture around 2700 BC to treat the pain associated with tooth decay. The first local anesthetic used in dentistry was Cocaine, introduced as an anesthetic by Carl Koller (1857-1944) in 1884. Researchers soon began working on a non-addictive substitute for Cocaine, and as a result German Chemist, Alfred Einkorn introduced Novocain in 1905. Alfred Einkorn was researching an easy-to-use and safe local anesthesia to use on soldiers during wartime. He refined the chemical procaine until it was more effective, and named the new product Novocain. Novocain never became popular for military use; however, it did become popular as an anesthetic among dentists. In 1846, Dr. William Morton, a Massachusetts dentist, was the first dentist to use anesthesia for tooth extraction.
Orthodontics
Although teeth straightening and extraction to improve alignment of remaining teeth has been practiced since early times, orthodontics as a science of its own did not really exits until the 1880s. The history of dental braces or the science of orthodontics is very complex. Many different inventors helped to create braces, as we know them today.
• Historians claim that two different men deserve the title of being called "The Father of Orthodontics." One man was Norman W. Kingsley, a dentist, writer, artist, and sculptor, who wrote his "Treatise on Oral Deformities" in 1880. What Kingsley wrote influenced the new dental science greatly. The second man who deserves credit was a dentist named J. N. Farrar who wrote two volumes entitled "A Treatise on the Irregularities of the Teeth and Their Corrections". Farrar was very good at designing brace appliances, and he was the first to suggest the use of mild force at timed intervals to move teeth.
• Edward H. Angle (1855-1930) devised the first simple classification system for malocclusions, which is still in use today. His classification system was a way for dentists to describe how crooked teeth are, what way teeth are pointing, and how teeth fit together. In 1901, Angle started the first school of orthodontics.
• In 1864, Dr. S.C. Barnum of New York invented the rubber dam.
• Eugene Solomon Talbot's (1847-1924) was the first person to use X-rays for orthodontic diagnosis.
• Calvin S. Case was the first person to use rubber elastics with braces.
Invisalign Braces
invented by Zia Chishti, are transparent, removable, and moldable braces. Instead of one pair of braces that are constantly adjusted, a series of braces are worn in succession each created by a computer. Unlike regular braces, Invisaligns can be removed for teeth cleaning. Zia Chishti, along with his business partner Kelsey Wirth, founded Align Technology in 1997 to develop and manufacture the braces. Invisalign braces were first made available to the public in May of 2000.
Toothpaste was used as long ago as 500 BC in both China and India; however, modern toothpastes were developed in the 1800s. In 1824, a dentist named Peabody was the first person to add soap to toothpaste. John Harris first added chalk as an ingredient to toothpaste in the 1850s. In 1873, Colgate mass-produced the first toothpaste in a jar. In 1892, Dr. Washington Sheffield of Connecticut manufactured toothpaste into a collapsible tube. Sheffield's toothpaste was called Dr. Sheffield's Creme Dentifrice. In 1896, Colgate Dental Cream was packaged in collapsible tubes imitating Sheffield. Advancements in synthetic detergents made after WW II allowed for the replacement of the soap used in toothpaste with emulsifying agents such as Sodium Lauryl Sulphate and Sodium Ricinoleate. A few years later, Colgate started to add fluoride to toothpaste.
source:http://inventors.about.com/library/inventors/bldental.htm
Friday, January 13, 2006
the energy for work, the mastery over self, the deliverance from fear, all spiritual results and graces are much advanced by prayer. the difference between the strength, the epxerience, the holiness of Christians is found in the contrast of their praying
- adapted from Edward Mckendree Bounds, 'Draper's Book of Quotation' 1992 Edition
- adapted from Edward Mckendree Bounds, 'Draper's Book of Quotation' 1992 Edition
yay! fri d 13th! i like fri n i like 13! haha... personal retreat today... was a much needed time...
woke up to c the sun! Yay yay!! nope... did not go out... went str 2 clear laundry...! while doing dat missed the Garang Guni man.... hope another one comes by... need to clear the papers... writing this now while waiting for my last batch of clothes in d machine. i'm always e"huang lian po"! haha... juz needed sun n leave (no work) to bring it out! yes the sun... n the prospect of retreat today cos me to be so cheerful...
dis week has been good. on sunday night, i told God, "can YOU PLS encourage me?" it felt so hard to gather d min tog... was kinda discouraged tryng to get it moving tog - DGs n the whole. n He did...!
mon was pizza party... PL n some others i din expect came... raining, so no rooftop star-gazing, din get enuf food (kena cheated... the food was so little.... paid $21 4 pathetic, small portions of finger food) etc... but pp got come... was simply contented n thankful mopping floor at 10pm... went to overnight prayer meet in church... reached at 1am... funny how it takes forever to travel in s'pore despite its size! was surprised got quite a no. of pp. n parents even brought their kids! wow... n of course, besides praying i people-watched. n i saw, clearer than during svc, gr8 couple dynamics. i am thankfu 2 c the love between husband n wife, n how some complemented n served God tog so well (D & J, B & P, TH & MH C & E...) i m so thankful dat there r strong marriages in church. i'm so thankful dat pp were given to prayer for d church.
tue was Haji... rested. juz read n played my guit. was a good sabbath for me! mag asked me out... but sorry gal... juz needed to stay home. desperately wanted to 'hang out at home' since "home" has been a place i come back to at ard 12am n get out of at 8am during weekdays.
met up wif Jerry on wed. really appreciate the frenship. had a deep, honest talk. i was so paiseh in dec wen he asked me out, i gave him 90 min timeslots to choose fr! he was like "wat?!?! feels like making an appt wif doc/ dentist/ psychologist!" glad dis time was more leisurely n cld really enjoy dinner. this is another thanksgiving for 2005. thank God 4 giving me elderly male frens in 2005 who have encouraged me much n fr whom i ve gleen much insights. Jerry gave me till 2007 2 get out... we will c...
"we will see" has been my tagline since last aug. man d ride became way rough since then n really... haha... dat's all i can say to so many things. with a mixture of faith n resignation actually. God does work in mysterious ways.
thurs Med nite... haha... it had different names... was ok nevertheless... thankful dat more pp did finally commit to come... weeks before dis week it was PATHETIC n i was so frustrated. NYP health sci pp, grads, med, den students, JC students etc... not too big, yet a cosy comfortable number. i m contented. let's c how we move on fr here n build on dis.
n fren sms-ed me to give me OTG... small amt, yet encouraging enuf. m content.
"we will c" my tag phrase, contentment is the goal n reward of d day... really... how can one not b wen we c God at work... n man, He is wise. His ways... cool. we will see... see God reveal and work His ways... n thence can only b amazed n content. GOD IS GOOD.
wow... dis is a long entry...!
woke up to c the sun! Yay yay!! nope... did not go out... went str 2 clear laundry...! while doing dat missed the Garang Guni man.... hope another one comes by... need to clear the papers... writing this now while waiting for my last batch of clothes in d machine. i'm always e"huang lian po"! haha... juz needed sun n leave (no work) to bring it out! yes the sun... n the prospect of retreat today cos me to be so cheerful...
dis week has been good. on sunday night, i told God, "can YOU PLS encourage me?" it felt so hard to gather d min tog... was kinda discouraged tryng to get it moving tog - DGs n the whole. n He did...!
mon was pizza party... PL n some others i din expect came... raining, so no rooftop star-gazing, din get enuf food (kena cheated... the food was so little.... paid $21 4 pathetic, small portions of finger food) etc... but pp got come... was simply contented n thankful mopping floor at 10pm... went to overnight prayer meet in church... reached at 1am... funny how it takes forever to travel in s'pore despite its size! was surprised got quite a no. of pp. n parents even brought their kids! wow... n of course, besides praying i people-watched. n i saw, clearer than during svc, gr8 couple dynamics. i am thankfu 2 c the love between husband n wife, n how some complemented n served God tog so well (D & J, B & P, TH & MH C & E...) i m so thankful dat there r strong marriages in church. i'm so thankful dat pp were given to prayer for d church.
tue was Haji... rested. juz read n played my guit. was a good sabbath for me! mag asked me out... but sorry gal... juz needed to stay home. desperately wanted to 'hang out at home' since "home" has been a place i come back to at ard 12am n get out of at 8am during weekdays.
met up wif Jerry on wed. really appreciate the frenship. had a deep, honest talk. i was so paiseh in dec wen he asked me out, i gave him 90 min timeslots to choose fr! he was like "wat?!?! feels like making an appt wif doc/ dentist/ psychologist!" glad dis time was more leisurely n cld really enjoy dinner. this is another thanksgiving for 2005. thank God 4 giving me elderly male frens in 2005 who have encouraged me much n fr whom i ve gleen much insights. Jerry gave me till 2007 2 get out... we will c...
"we will see" has been my tagline since last aug. man d ride became way rough since then n really... haha... dat's all i can say to so many things. with a mixture of faith n resignation actually. God does work in mysterious ways.
thurs Med nite... haha... it had different names... was ok nevertheless... thankful dat more pp did finally commit to come... weeks before dis week it was PATHETIC n i was so frustrated. NYP health sci pp, grads, med, den students, JC students etc... not too big, yet a cosy comfortable number. i m contented. let's c how we move on fr here n build on dis.
n fren sms-ed me to give me OTG... small amt, yet encouraging enuf. m content.
"we will c" my tag phrase, contentment is the goal n reward of d day... really... how can one not b wen we c God at work... n man, He is wise. His ways... cool. we will see... see God reveal and work His ways... n thence can only b amazed n content. GOD IS GOOD.
wow... dis is a long entry...!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
my baby!
Announcing the arrival of my baby on 5 Jan 12.12am!!! costing 2280... baht!!! 95 Sing. yeah yeah...!! thanks Tin 4 helping!!!! she sounds gr8! slim n sleek! i m so excited. have been playing with my baby everyday since. her arrival rekindled my love for playing guit. it's been so long...!-----------
it has been so long... since i lost my first guit, a classical... lost in EA. sad sad. really miss it. was given me by my aunt. she bought it when she co-founded Guitar Ensemble in TJ 30 years ago...! was of a good brand. sound was GREAT. had a "FAITH" sticker on it. uncle gave me a replacement... but it's not the same y'know... my prayer is dat the faith guit will find itself in hands of christians. i hope it'll travel to places i wont go n accompany people in worship unto Jesus. *sniff*
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i was in tingles everytime i thot abt it every since Tin told me she got it n i transferred the money... n i was to get it wen she touched down... i wondered: how does it look like? will i like it? i was trying to imagine but cant... so exciting... haha...
e day of it's arrival, i rushed down to the airport fr GC... was late... tin had arrived. ran to BK to look 4 her... with head turning frantically, eyes wide and searching, n a bladder full of piss (haha! OFP), i saw my baby! it kinda felt like how some people described the way they felt when they were adopting their kid... there she was, on the trolley... my heart skipped a beat!
Yeah yeah! cant wait to plug it in... right now, must polish up my playing b4 showing her off!
christening prayer:
May u inspire and ignite the desire to worship in spirit n in truth. May God draw His beloved to yearn for and sing unto Him.
"Sing to Him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy." Psalm 33:3
Monday, January 09, 2006
1st time in 14 years my name is not on the sunday sch roster! hui passed me the paper to haf a look in the wee hours of sunday n a sort of funny emotion came over me as that thot hit. it's a mixture of slight "yi yi bu she", n a split sec of wondering if i did right to come out of it 2 go to youth. i mean... 14 years! wow... i really do like all my kids (esp d pre-sch!) even tho my last class of p3 n 4s was plain disrespectful, boisterous n frustrating.
n 1st time my name will appear in the music min roster.
so many 1sts already! 2006 promises no short of stretching experiences n adventure. Yeep was reminding me after service dat pp like us who can do alot always tend kena 2 b over-stretched.
well, i dun have a big prob saying "no". juz rejected translating 4 svc... i hope dat counts. i guess the tacky part is discerning wat to say "yes" to. (said "yes" to anything to steven. "yes" n "no" to abi.) there needs to be a healthy balance of saying "yes" to God-ordained growing pains as opposed to man-imposed over-extension. need time to sit myself down to check my 06 commitments. as it is, it's too much already. well... i endeavor not to over-estimate myself this year (i like 2 b under-stated). n of course to observe my sabbaths.
i insist dat: dis. is. not. my. resolution. haha... i think "new year resolutions" are sure-fail.
n 1st time my name will appear in the music min roster.
so many 1sts already! 2006 promises no short of stretching experiences n adventure. Yeep was reminding me after service dat pp like us who can do alot always tend kena 2 b over-stretched.
well, i dun have a big prob saying "no". juz rejected translating 4 svc... i hope dat counts. i guess the tacky part is discerning wat to say "yes" to. (said "yes" to anything to steven. "yes" n "no" to abi.) there needs to be a healthy balance of saying "yes" to God-ordained growing pains as opposed to man-imposed over-extension. need time to sit myself down to check my 06 commitments. as it is, it's too much already. well... i endeavor not to over-estimate myself this year (i like 2 b under-stated). n of course to observe my sabbaths.
i insist dat: dis. is. not. my. resolution. haha... i think "new year resolutions" are sure-fail.
of pride n prejudice
darcy reminds me of B. reading the exchanges between darcy n elizabeth made me miss conversing with B. i was kinda taken aback by dat very thot. really... B is so like Darcy on so many accounts except the physique. of course... a very marked characteristic similarity is his insolent pride... as thot of by so many. n me, haha... as biased against him as i could be.
anway, really do miss B. the intellectual discourses; the exchanges in pride; the critical word battles; the defending of personal prejudices... etc etc etc etc. hiaz. wat can u expect from a MCP n FCP both given to debating? dat opportuned our getting better acquainted... yet also proved to be our undoing.
wat happened? a long series of unfortunate events dat climaxed to a pathetic, miserly quarrel on the icq. last met unavoidably at a wedding dinner... whose icy hostility towards me was evident to all at the table i had to beat a hasty retreat from. n as if to confirm dat the episode was not a figment of my imagination, my fren who was wif me asked, "wat did you do? He HATES you!"
there's no situation necessitating an iron-out, or reconciliation for that matter. so in an ironic turn of tables, my pride is still hurt, n B, is still prejudiced.
anway, really do miss B. the intellectual discourses; the exchanges in pride; the critical word battles; the defending of personal prejudices... etc etc etc etc. hiaz. wat can u expect from a MCP n FCP both given to debating? dat opportuned our getting better acquainted... yet also proved to be our undoing.
wat happened? a long series of unfortunate events dat climaxed to a pathetic, miserly quarrel on the icq. last met unavoidably at a wedding dinner... whose icy hostility towards me was evident to all at the table i had to beat a hasty retreat from. n as if to confirm dat the episode was not a figment of my imagination, my fren who was wif me asked, "wat did you do? He HATES you!"
there's no situation necessitating an iron-out, or reconciliation for that matter. so in an ironic turn of tables, my pride is still hurt, n B, is still prejudiced.
Friday, January 06, 2006
my biggest thanksgiving in 2005
i JUZ realised... when i was replying an email... dat i have much to thank God for in 2005... the biggest thanksgiving is seeing my siblings walk so close with God. it's so gladening. to hear how my bro, in BMT, sought out Christians, gathered them to pray at 430, chose not to hang around the table filled wif porn mags, how he, having moved to a new camp, found Christians and initiated worship and prayer sessions tog. to see how my sis grew in faith in God; how she takes on min commitments dat she could say "no" to, but instead, "yes" in faith and out of a burden to meet a need she sees. and of course, the times they chose to extend forgiveness to me. m humbled n thankful. thank you God.
in "Finding Nemo", Dory said to Marlin, "When I look at you… I'm home."
Hwee ended her email update with that. it's Remi's and Yves' fav animation. reading news from her and from friends so far away juz makes them seem near. i can almost see her in my mind's eye, in that little, tugged away, scenic village.
her letter
reminded me to pray for her, n her family, for france n it's 47% divorce rate and families with members having 3,4 different last names and people going thru marriages "keeping their fingers crossed" dat it'll work out...
called me back to be mindful and thankful of the little pleasures of life, and to our God who is so faithful.
God bless n keep you all, Hwee.
Hwee ended her email update with that. it's Remi's and Yves' fav animation. reading news from her and from friends so far away juz makes them seem near. i can almost see her in my mind's eye, in that little, tugged away, scenic village.
her letter
reminded me to pray for her, n her family, for france n it's 47% divorce rate and families with members having 3,4 different last names and people going thru marriages "keeping their fingers crossed" dat it'll work out...
called me back to be mindful and thankful of the little pleasures of life, and to our God who is so faithful.
God bless n keep you all, Hwee.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
T T Durai... hiaz...
The memory of the righteous will be a blessing, but the name of the wicked will rot. - Prov 10:7
A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold. - Prov 22:1
A good name is better than fine perfume - Ecc 7:1
wat happened??
he forgot who he was serving.
so it is wif us if we are not careful...
Charities exist for the needy
// Christians exist for God (to worship God n enjoy Him)
we were appalled n shocked dat only 10% raised went to the patients...
yet...
we who say we live for Christ, n unabashedly quote n say "amen" to Philippians 3:8 "I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ", we content to give God a mere 10%, not of our all, but juz our money?! mere 10% (nonwithstanding some WAY less!). some say, well... dat's wat the OT states wat... actually... the NT's standard is higher... since we live not by the letter of the Law but grace. shouldn't we re-look into wat we give to God juz as we query into charity exp?
give God wat's right, not wat's left
The memory of the righteous will be a blessing, but the name of the wicked will rot. - Prov 10:7
A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold. - Prov 22:1
A good name is better than fine perfume - Ecc 7:1
wat happened??
he forgot who he was serving.
so it is wif us if we are not careful...
Charities exist for the needy
// Christians exist for God (to worship God n enjoy Him)
we were appalled n shocked dat only 10% raised went to the patients...
yet...
we who say we live for Christ, n unabashedly quote n say "amen" to Philippians 3:8 "I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ", we content to give God a mere 10%, not of our all, but juz our money?! mere 10% (nonwithstanding some WAY less!). some say, well... dat's wat the OT states wat... actually... the NT's standard is higher... since we live not by the letter of the Law but grace. shouldn't we re-look into wat we give to God juz as we query into charity exp?
give God wat's right, not wat's left
motto of d year
D.W.I.T
"If Jesus Christ is God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him." - C.T Studd
my fav hymn
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all
- Issac Watts
"If Jesus Christ is God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him." - C.T Studd
my fav hymn
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all
- Issac Watts
Sunday, January 01, 2006
My Presence will go with you
His unfailing Presence
Another year i enter
it's history unknown,
oh, how my feet would tremble
to tread its path alone!
But i have heard a whisper
I know i shall be blest,
"My presence shall go with thee,
And i will give you rest"
What will tghe New Year bring me?
i may not, must not know,
will it be love and rapture,
or loneliness and woe?
Hush! Hush! i hear His whisper
I shall surely be blest,
"My presence shall go with thee,
and i will give thee rest."
and i will give thee rest."
(Walter B. Knight, Knight's Treasury of 2000 Illustration)
"You have been telling me, 'Lead these people,'
but You have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favour with me.' If You are pleased with me, teach me Your ways, so i may know You and continue to find favour with you. Remember that this nation is your people."
The Lord replied, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."
Ex 33:12, 13, 14
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