cant believe

cant believe it...
1) it's been a week n the gals whom i hang out wif at the food n book fairs last sun were still harping abt how MUCH i ate! (basically ate a whole day's worth of food intake at one go) shocker huh

2) dat lydia said my blog is dead... hey 4 entries (mon, wed, fri n sat!) n one more b4 the new week starts. wat is dead??

3) did a choral reading on "God's heart for all nations" for missions conf at svc. had fun rehearsing wif D b4 svc. was good comic relief. i meant me. made a few mistakes at the real reading. i wished we had made it more fun instead of so sombre. the highlight of the day was dat some pp came up to me to say they like my voice! dat it was so nice, sweet. i was like "huh?" haven t they heard my voice enuf? but this was a reading thingy... n i was more narrator/compere-like... n, haha.. my youths were saying i sound so nice n gentle. so unlike me... some say i should talk like dat more... n i did... n got them fits of laughter. yeah... cant believe sometimes i can sound very nice, esp over the mic... most times, i sound hoarse n brutish (muahaha!)

4) my 2 dayz leave is not enuf. took leave 2 salvage my brain. it's a case of "too little too late". i'm a little more needy than i think! hee... such a loafer! a bit wasted i havent gotten round 2 do as much as i hoped. cant believe i can b so busy doing nothing!

5) cant believe i've turned into such a homey! stayed home 2 dayz.. n today came home by 230 i think... (cos i din eat lunch wif the youths... man... pasta mania cum movie... they cant believe wen i say it's expensive. dey dun noe how little i earn huh... i'd earn more working at macs... but dat's not the point. ) n i wanna stay home more!

6) cant believe i dun wanna talk much these dayz... nope not depressed or anything... juz not as keen to yak.

7) cant believe i'm in this paradoxical mood... wanna hang out wif frenz but dun really wanna hang... wanna find someone to share deeply... but... as i go thru the long list of close confidants... i dunno... like i said, dun feel like tokking... guess i'll juz stick wif Jesus for now.. not much time at hand anywayz. sorry if i din seem so keen in meeting up... sorry YT for today's snub.

8) cant believe i wanna watch matrix all over again! watched hlaf of matrix reloaded on ch5 today... thot i'd like to rewatch the whole trilogy. haha... shall end wif quote fr Morpheus: "what if the war will end tomorrow? isnt it something worth fighting for? isnt it something worth dying for?"